Yo peeps!
I'm back again.
Feels so good slacking at home.
No worries, only day-dreaming!. =)
Muahahahas.
But hais...
My clique meeting out for Sakae Shushi for lunch today.
Wanna join them too,
but no money -.-
Not a single cent.
So broke, bo bian.
All my fault la, lost my spec.
Hais.
Wanna have sushi so much... T.T

Alright, I'm so so so loving this week!.
Gonna get my spec (maybe on Tuesday..which is tml!.)
and our new furnitures are coming soon on this friday!. =D
SMILE =D

Oh yah, wanna congrats Hao and her Boon for being tgt for more than 365 days!.
It's a year le leh!.
Wow, time flies.

This year of 2007,
is happening to me.
Time of happiness and time of depression.
Happiness, is just that little.
Depression, seems to take the majority of my life.
People walk in and walk out of my life,
and I'm quite used to it already.
It makes me stronger anyway, so good for me I've thought.
But a person simply walk out without noticing me.
And I'm missing it.
Whatever it is, whatever reason I can have, I'll nvr admit.
Iya, dunno what I'm talking about too.
Hahahas.
I'm really crazy now.

Alright, task of the day:
1) dO housework
2) Slack
3) Distribute task for Jap script.

Ganbatte kudasai minasan!. =)

Ohaiyo gozaimasu!.
Had ur breakfast?.
Me?.
Yes of cos, had a damn heavy breakfast,
make sure I don't get hungry so easily -.-

Just finish my Jap script,
and waiting for Xuan Yi's reply for her email add before sending the file to rest of gals.
Hais.
So tiring.
Mentally la.
Plus no spec now,
see the screen till I get more blur vision.
LOL.
Just saw 1 Jie's blog,
my eye sight like that good meh?.
Cos the degree for my left eye is 0 while right one is 100.
G00d???!. LOL.
But nvm, at least left side can see clearly when someone dumb punch my right eye!.
LOL!.
So lame of me -.-

Papa went out.
He dressed up so formal la.
So long nvr see him in formal wear le.
LOL. Looks funny and skinny to me.
He eat lesser than me sia.
Kao, no wonder I'm getting... T.T
He said he gonna meet his Ex-boss from a sales company.
And his company seems to have some critics,
so need help from my papa.
Feels my papa so wei da.
Hahahas.
All his life,
he lives for his interest,
that is SALES.
Wonder why...
But ya, what can we do?.
Sales line is about about taking risk and having good connections.
Now even how out-spoken you are,
you gotta know how to fight and get a stand for ur product.
Anyway, yup it's all bout sales.
I hope my dad won't pull me into this zone,
I will die.
Pray~
But I do hope he can quit his current job and chiong for sales instead.
Cos his current job is inhuman.

Alright, end of my grandma story.
I am so tired again.
RRRrrrrr....
And gonna complete my Amic project ltr.
It's a MUST Manda!.
Damn u for slacking la 0.o
Hahahas.
Okay, byebye!.

Cheers!.

Yoyo!.
Wau Seh...
I spent quite a lot today.
This is damn sinful -.-
New spec : $108 (My bro may kill me if he knows it... so dead)
Movie & Makan: $20
God la.
How am I going to face my bro!.
He's my BANK.
He said I can't withdraw anymore money once I get BANKRUPT.
I wanna buy 4D liao T.T
Or the other way out is to work part-time -.o

You see, things which are rather compulsory,
Bus concession (due on 4 Jan 08): $52
New yr clothes: $80
Allowance for this mth: $100
God la!.
I need (52+80+100)=$232
T.T
I need a part-time job now.
But I swear I don't have the time and energy to.

Alright, wanna divert my attention to somewhere else,
or I'll go nuts.
Oh yeah!.
Went to watch movie instead of doing my project XP
I AM LEGEND.
Of cos I am lah!.
LOL.
Everyone is,
YOU are all unique!. =))
That is super nice.
In conclusion, this virologist saved his people in exchange of his own dear life.
He actually stayed alive for over 3 years with his dog, Samantha.
Hey see this clearly, HE & HIS DOG ONLY.
God, I can't imagine how he lead that all almost alone.
Rate 4/5.
Good catch yea =D



Alright, gonna take a good bathe and task of the night:
1. Amic project
2. Jap script

Cheers peeps!.

ARGHH...
Feels so sleepy.
Waiting for my friend to get online for Jap presentation discussion.
Hokay, just on time, she's online now.
Muahahas.
Die la, feels so sleepy -.-
Script script script....
Yawns more~

You know what!.
I actually dreamed of gg China last night!.
Wow cool sia.
I just came back from some places then last min pack my bag.
Brought few sweaters and rushed to airport to meet my mom.
LOL.
How I wish it was real.
............
Day dreaming while discussing now.

God la!.
I feel like gg Korea so much!.
Okay okay, that shall be my first pay treat =P
Muahahahhas!.
KOREA~ Wait for me!~

Now still brainstorming for the script.
Head gonna burst le T.T
Hais.
Hope all my projects can be completed asap.
Yawns again~

Yeah!.
Waiting for afternoon!.
To shop for my spec =))
Hope the price is reasonable =X
Yeah... Then 1 Jie will be accompanying me there =)
Thx her so much.
Oh yah, maybe I can ask Hao too =D
Alright, back to work.
Cya peeps!.

Cheers!.

Halo people =))
Today meant to be a very fulfilling day,
not until my naggy mom came home -.-
Hais.

But nvm, let's talk smth happy =)
Had a heavy breakfast, with 2 slices of cheese and my HL milk!..
Yummy!. =P
Finished my 2nd drama, My sister-in-law is 19.
I don't really like the ending though,
but I still learn smth from it =)
Wait for clock to strike 10am,
had subject selection for coming year 3 =X
Will be taking Bioprocess technology and Tissue Engineering.
Heard it's simpler,
so yup,
HOPEFULLY~

Time flies huh, now I gonna complete my 2nd year le.
Many people to thanks really =)
If they're not there,
you would have see me in some other workplace le.=X
I'd learnt to be strong!.

In the afternoon, I made lunch for both me and my big bro.
We had Fish with spaghetti!.=))
And I found out smth,
I used the wrong powder sia!.
Ended up the fish tasted weird -.-
LOL.
So pai seh bro!. XP

1st trail---> For myself

2nd trail---> For my bro, which was equally terrible XP

Forget bout the unhappy thing that had happened today.
I hate to repeat things that made me and my life sucks.
But I wanna thanks 1 Jie for chatting with me in MSN just now.
If not, I would have cried non-stop le T.T
Love 1 Jie to lots!.
Muacks!. =D

Quotes of the day:
Unhappiness is the main component of happiness.
Treat UNHAPPINESS as the nutrients that is required for growth of HAPPINESS =)
If not that I'd cried today,
I didn't realize how happy I am today.



Cheers to all!.

Yoyo!.
Today is another peaceful day =)
Love it.
Cos I can get to do stuffs I olwas wanted to do.
Is to slack and watch drama and cook some nice food =))
Though I know I sucks at it.
LOL!.
Oh yah, went to Polyclinic for blood testing and vaccination (Hep. B and Tetanus) ACTUALLY,
but ended up we did nth of the above.
This was because the Tetanus we had in Primary School offers a period of 10 years "waranty",
hence, we made a waste trip there.
Hahas.
And I'd taken Hep. B not long ago,
so I need to take that.
BUt still gotta go for blood test to prove them some shit -.-
Waste my money.
Damn it.
So I may follow Gala to her family clinic lo.

Now waiting for clock to strike 1pm.
Gonna meet Gala to KCC.
Muahahahs.
Enjoy ya day too =)
More to update if I've the time at night =)

Quote of the day: Love is not by choice; but by destiny. Hence try your best.

Wanted badly: Spectacle (I can even dream of choosing spec frame!.) T.T
Ring for small finger de. (These days having my old habit back-.-)

Yoyo peeps I'm back!.
Muahahas
Christmas party was fun in Sentosa =)
Though we did nth much,
but the company we had for one another is more than enough =)
Erm, wad else...
we didnt manage to take many pictures,
think just a few.
LOL.
But we did have nice food at night!.
Barbecue at Sentosa beach!. =D
Oiishii ne!.
And I wanna REVENGE too!.
1 Jie Fu and 4 Jie threw sand at me,
ended up having to wash up -.-
RRrrrrr....
I gonna get from u soon!!!...
Muahahahhas.
But nvm,
overall we had fun.
Then get to know Melvin more.
LOL.
He's really funny la...
Can't stop thinking he's a...
Hmm yup yup.
LOL.
But k la, I know he's not.
I'm not that bad okay!. XP

Alright, since there's nth much to tok,
let's bring a topic out to share.
Hmm, how bout Wealth, Jealousy and Selfish?.
Yes yes, I hear "YES"!.
LOL.
Arigato gozaimasu!.

Alright, coming to such situation,
you guys should have that in mind while watching TV or smth yea?.
In fact, it exists in real life too,
not drama alone.
Why people want wealth so much?.
My opinion: cos human just can't be satisfied.
That's what makes a person so unhappy and more imperfect.
Why are people tend to be jealous of one another at times?.
My opinion: Cos there are some people whom can achieve certain things earlier in life,while those whom lag behind failed. Hence, their goals are blurred and vision shifted to the those holding on to the trophy.
Why some people are selfish then?.
My opinion: They may have lose something very precious in the past, and hence they just couldn't lose it again. Thus they hold on to it very tightly. Or, it's just a disease. A disease which almost everyone has it.
In fact, I'd a little of all above.
Need not be ashame of it,
cos it's just human nature =)
No one in the world is ever perfect,
but everyone is trying to make that a miracle and moving towards it.
I don't think it's impossible,
but with all little diseases we have,
it's still a bit tough.
You know,
human anatomy is very complicated,
up till now, not all specimens in our body are specified.
On the contrary, human feelings were meant to be simple.
Angry, sad, worry and happy.
Isn't it?.
I'm one of the most imperfect person.
Another weakness of mine,
I do not have confidence at all.
How much it costs huh?.
Can I buy it?.
But sad to say, it needs time to build up.
Many people ask me:" Why don't you have a r'ship up till now?. U're not bad.." Bla bla bla...
My ans was:"Cos I'm scared"
Today, right now,
I feel rotten bout it.
Cos it isn't the right ans.
It's because I have no confidence at all.
It's as if my imagination is running wild,
that everyone seems to surround me and say "hey u ugly thing... An ugly duckling wanna turn into a phoenix huh?. dream on..."
See, for these 18 years, I'm letting my imagination run so wild and ridiculous.
Time to change Manda.
And to anyone one else having the same situation as me.
In my life, I'd lost 2 important people.
In order not to lose anymore,
I shall change and help others more.
Wealth, Jealousy, Selfishness,
they shall end somehow in this ugly world.
To change a little, to make others life better too.
Sometime, for certain incident, I get grow a little.
The outside world is bigger than I'd thought,
hence I must make sure I'm ready for every single challenges.
Ganbatte Kudasai minasan!. =)

Annyeong-haseyo!.

Had fun these few days,
while busy with some furniture stuffs at home.
Before I start to share with wad I'd these days,
I wanna apologise to Tonberry and my lovely AF-15 clique of not being able to join ya guys for X'mas gathering.

Mianhamnida =(

On friday, went to Hao's house for potluck,
and we had lotsa food!!.
Oiishi ne!
Thanks to: 1 Jie, 2 Jie, 3 Jie, 4 Jie and 6 Meis for everything!.
Gamsahamnida!. =))
Then we had majong after dinner.
Wau seh, fun fun!.
While 1 and 2 Jie left the place early.
Played till 1:40am,
and 6 Meis fu sent us home =)
Arigato gozaimashita Meis fu!.

Next day,
is Pulau Ubin day!.
It's super fun!.
But tiring~
LOL.
And oh yea, some pictures to share!. =))



And today me and my Jie meis and Jie fu and Da sao gg Sentosa tonight!.
Weeeeeee~~~
Looking forward =)

And wanna wish everyone a Merry X'mas and Happy New Year in advance! =))

My doubts are cleared.
Look forward on Monday badly =)
Yeah!~
Love my QJM so much!. =))

Yea man.
This is the 200th post!.
Congrats me?.
LOL.
Thanks anyway.
Nah, but that's not my purpose,
trying to waste time while waiting for the online video to load.
RRrrr... It keeps buffering every few minutes for some episodes.
So I gotta pray for every single of them while loading.
Pray pray~
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Hmm...
Manda is not feeling that good today.
She is not angry,
but just sad.
Sad over things that happened in the past.
Yah, whenever I'm sad,
I tend to make comparison.
I know it's a big NO.
But yah, naturally you'll get to do so.
It's just out of control.
I mentioned I'm not feeling well.
Yah, mentally.
What else to argue when ppl don't understand your point?.
There's no right or wrong.
It's just my perceptions.
Anyone there to agree with me?.
I thought there would,
but sad that there isn't.
Ask me what's a friend to me now.
I will reply,
"sorry, I don't know what's a friend for"
I only know I have a bunch of "siblings" I have,
having no blood-related types of relationship.
We are just that close.
But come to think of it,
is it ending soon?.
Doubts.
Why?.
Friendship and a relationship,
I failed in accomplishing both.
Am I the one the cause of problems?.
Am I creating all these out?.
Am I being a burden?.
Anything craps you can think of,
am I am I am I??????...
But I'm tired of arranging...
It takes 2 hands to clap.
In my situation,
it takes 7 pairs of hands isn't it?.
All I need is to see that 7 faces,
knowing that they're safe and sound and healthy,
good enough.
Oh yah, then am I asking too much?.
Cos there's not much worries for me,
I'm free and alone,
so I'll get to miss a lot of people whom are bz.
Hence, I hope in future,...
yah yah... yes in future,
I'll be very busy till I dunno what is time.
Being sick is good isn't it,
cos I think no more.
I just sleep and eat and sometimes laugh at mine silliness.
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Oh yah, I still love to be dumb.
And last but not least,
thanks 1 Jie for tml's meeting.
Domo arigato gozaimasu.

Omg...
My Lovely Sam soon made me sob so much.
Imagine at the age of 30, you're still a spinster.
And worst of all, u're ditched again.
I think nth can heal my wound again.
It's no body's fault,
just bad luck.

I could imagine 20 more years down the road,
I'm still alone.
Then let's be it bah.
I'm praying no more~

How to become happier?.
Teach me.

LOL.
Now watching My Lovely Sam-Soon.
Hahas!. She so cute la!.
Then the Hyun Jin-heon so charming too!!.
Weeweeeeee~~~
And they really make up a great pair!. =)
Realized most of the guys in Poly really cannot make it.
Due to how immature they are.
Come on, learn from Jin-heon bah,
that's what I think it's call true love =)
Muahahhas!.
Nice nice.
At the same time,
I'd completed Sudoku from TODAY.
It's difficulty level is just 2 out of 5.
LOL.
So meant to be straightforward and easy la.
But I took bout an hour to complete that.
Wow, really kill all my brain cells!.
Yeah!.
Manda's 1st completed Sudoku on her own!.
Wau seh.
A simple task,
a simple drama can brighten up my day.
See how easily satisfied I am.
I hope I can be like this for rest of my life.
Filled with laughters every single day =)

Hokay, to be cont'd...

Wow wow~
Realized how messed up my life is.
In fact, it has olwas been.
So yes yes, change Manda!.

Aiya, realized that X'mas eve and X'mas I have some important stuffs to do.
So may not be able to join anyone out for celebration.
So greet everyone Merry X'mas in advance yea!. =)
Cheers to all =D

Hmm... What else...
Hahahs.
Speechless le,
take care peeps!. =)

No matter how hateful I used to be,
I gonna change.
I want all kinds of god to witness my resolution.
I gonna TURN OVER A NEW LEAF.
LOL.
Sounds like I'd committed some really sinful stuffs.
But yup, I gonna change for a better.
I wanna be the innocent and slow kid I'd been in the very past.

Manda is...
Impatient,
Not confident,
Cunning,
Unfriendly,
Revengeful,
Dumb.

Hence,she gonna change to become...
Patient,
Confident (not in terms of look, but mindset),
Stupid & Blur,
Calm

That will make me happier I guess.
She'll try harder with no one's help.
Cos she gonna be independent no matter what.

She wish:
All to be happy and healthy.
To have their wishes come through for a brand new year of 2008.
All her "single" Jie meis to get their partner soon so that they have somebody to be taken care of.
All her "attached" Jie meis to stay happily and long-lasting with their partners.
Herself to think no more and start working cos she may be flying soon for holiday XP

Hokay,
Cheers =)

Halo ppl.
I have some evaluation to make here.
I wonder if it's sinful but yah... just wanna share.

These days,
or make it this yr of 2007,
I'd really suffered a lot.
Be it physically or mentally.
It's as if I'd turned into a different person.
I dun wanna be that too.
I olwas thought that I won't surrender to fate.
But looks like I'm LOST in every battle.
At times, I will try to laugh as much as I can,
to hide the gloomy me.
But to a certain extend, I feel tired bout that.
It's when I came to realize why am I olwas living for the sake of others and not myself?
Why must I make myself so unhappy in such a way?.
This then makes me hating myself more.
That's why I always say that the world's greatest enemy is myself.
I can't get through my obstacles, it's been a year plus and it hasn't fade away.
Yes, I have no confident,
I olwas complain that I'm ugly,
I'm dumb,
I'm slow,
I'm a bad person,
etc.
Anything you can say, yes it's me.
I'm just that bad overall.
I nvr know how to treasure.

Hence, whenever ppl are trying to help me out like introducing guys to me,
I'm like wth, do I need that?.
Why intro a guy to a guy?.
-.-
Yes yes, I'm like this I know myself.
But ya.. what to do.

Think of it,
so what if u're super confident of what makes u?.
It's just a question.
Not pin-pointing to anyone =)

Alright, maybe what makes u comfortable is the most impt.
So yup, I'm trying to do a lot of things to divert my attention to all these craps.

This is such a random post.
Come I just dunno what is me.
Wait time will reveal itself.
Alright, smile no matter what =)

Ganbatte kudasai minasan!. =)

T.T
T.T
T.T
I'm sad...
cos it left me...
It's with me 2 yrs...
And I can't bare to leave it like this...
It's swept away T.T

It's my HAIR~~
It seems that I'd taken a wrong move right from the start.
Right from the time I say I wanna change a new hair style.
I feel like stabbing myself.
Hais...
No more nice hair, hence mine overall looks bad.
In fact, damn ugly T.T
Wau lau...
face so ugly liao, and my hair like that.
Kao, stab more!!.

Hokay la, no point moaning here.
Gotta accept it by hook or by crook.
Think I may tie my hair up often.
Hais...
Argh!!.
What a wrong move.
Like playing chess.
Sobbbbb~~~~

Btw, today's MCT was fine =)
Know how to do.
AT least majority.
Think it's the only paper that I have confident in bah =P
Hao bah, that's all for now.
No matter how sad I am, I'm still glad that I can meet my jie meis soon tml!. =)
Wahahahs.
Neutralize.

Oh yah, wanna thx Gala for staying by MY SIDE in the salon.
LOL.
W/O u, I may cry throughout!.
Friends are impt no matter what!.
LOL. XD
Thx again!.

End~
Argh!!..
KuKu head!.
Can't wait 2 yrs to pass quickly!. T.T

ARGH!!...
I feel so sick!!!.
Not feeling well at all!.
How to focus for the last test?!.
RRrrrr....
Manda!!.
Jia you!...
And pls get well asap!.
T.T
Want to eat also no appetite.
I don't this way to slim down.
It sucks alot -.-

Hokay, gonna take rest before studying.
Argh...
Get well soon I plead myself T.T

Muahahahs
I'm so damn tired T.T
Not enough sleep and my vision is blurring.
Wonder if it's my eyes having the problem or just that the mist is playing pranks.
And just finish writing some brief notes for the last chapter and yea..
still pondering what is the difference between a feeder layer and a matrix coating.
Alright, here goes my reading and personal elaboration:
Matrix Coating
-Initial cell cultures releases matrix products such as collagen, fibronectin, etc.
-Helps to improve surface for 2nd seeding.
Feeder layer
-Grown as monolayer on substrate that allows selective or suitable attachment for other cells.

Hokay, I think I still need pictures for more understanding.
LOL.
Just can't memorise like that.
Gonna kill me -.-

Btw, yesterday papers murdered all my brain cells.
Needs time for them to grow back.
Btw, I doubt that brain cells grow?. LOL.
Cannot right?. Hahahas
Kao, call myself a science student.
Think I'm the dumbest among all.
And yes, think I gonna do badly for both paper.
In other words, fail lo -.-
Hais, nvr escape the F word.
LOL.
Yes, I mean FAIL!.
Hahahahs. What u thinking about huh.
God, I'm crapping again.

Spent the whole night yesterday trying to install the bluetooth device in my com.
But due to some errors in there, FAILED.
Then SUCCEEDED not long ago!. =)
WOOOOHHOOOOO!~

Hokay, shall pick some nice pictures to share =)
And for ur info, the pictures may be like a month ago or so.
LOL.







Yea man, and tt's all I have today =)
Quick talk :
To Mich--> Ur blog touches me alot. X)
TO 1 Jie--> COngrats for ur wonderful performance in esplanade!. =)
To everyone--> All the best for the rest of papers =D

Yoyo!.
Konnichiwa!. =)

Manda is now:
Crazy over Xing Guan Bang!. (They sing really well, pei fu!.)

Trying to learn some songs. =)

Going to Mac to study and get home early tonight to rest.

Happy and contented cos his msg makes her smile. He isn't everything to her though, but she do treasure that friendship alot.

Rather hungry cos she haven't had lunch. =X (And she wanna slim down LOL.)

Looking forward to next saturday cos they'll be Lotus KBox session again!. [She misses her jie meis alot =)]

Not confident of tml's test T.T ( But she'll still try her best!.)

Hokay, byebye peeps!. =)

Laughing gas all over me today =P
Laugh all day.
Funny laugh, not funny also laugh.
LOL.
Just laugh la!!.
And Huiyi worse than me!.
LOL.
She's near to craziness!!.
Ask her lo.
Her xing guan bang came to Bugis Junction.
And she shook hands with them!!.
That's why she's exhilarated.
Hahahas.

And yes yes study time.
Either later or tomorrow.

Hais, I have a small wish now.
To join music forest to sing.
Not to be a singer, but just to sing.
Sing for everyone =)
And compose another song for my jie meis and friends.
And most importantly, for my uncle & grandpa =)

Yeah yeah!.
Took a damn long time logging in here -.-
Hokay, I've got only 15 mins to blog.

Hmm. Today was studying in Mac and learned a lesson there.
Saw this uncle in his middle age was sort of reprimanded by his manager.
And the way he kept nodding his head silently,
makes me feel a pinch of sympathy for him.
He may be a father of a family.
He had very little education.
He isn't that well to do.
He is banned from luxury due to his very little pay.
Though I can't predict his future, I can somehow assume his current situation.
So yup, from this, I linked back to my parents.
Replace the poor uncle with my parents.
See how they are treated when they were in work.
My family isn't that bloated too.
So my parents tend to reject any leaves and of cos forget bout MCs.
See how hard they work just for the family,
they missed a lot of fun.
Whatever it is, this is life.
The only way we can modify it is to respect.
Give respect to anyone, be it young or old,
we all deserve some basic respect.
Maybe with this, we'll get to live happier and less stressful =)

Hokay, end of evaluation.
Time to get some sleep too.
Oyasumi nasai minasan!.

Love,
Manda

Yoyo!.
Manda's back!. =D
Manda's getting beta, so gals dont wry ks =)
Arigato gozaimashita!.

Term tests will be held next wk.
And basically my days are full of school work and stuffs.
Nth much to share,
no interesting stuffs leh...
Sians too..

Oh yah. Gonna intro ya guys a damn nice cantonese song by Fish Leong soon!.
Very nice =D

Hmm....Errr...
Very random of me now..
Cos rather tired T.T
Okok, gonna meet 6 Meis for dinner soon le =D
Hooray!.
Hope the 4 of us will be back soon to chit chat at mountain top.
I miss those days.
=(

For whatever wrongs a person can do,
we shall never forget to share our forgiveness =)

Think I'm falling sick again.
Feeling cold now when the sun is embracing the earth outside. -.-
And god.. I'm shivering~~~~~
But nth can stop me from studying MCT and Mbio ltr.
Gotta start now or it's damn late.
Hais.
When I don't wanna myself to be sick, I am sick.
When I wanna be sick badly, I nvr gets sick.
Argh... so sickening.

Yesterday had kbox session with the Lotus gals. =)
But sad that Meiqi ahyi and 1 Jie can't join us =X
Nah nvm, there will be one soon to cover up yesterday's "lost"
And god sry Tony!.
I actually forgot to remind him bout it!.
And ended up he can't join us =(
Sumimasen ne...
Oh yah, it was Ker wei's bdae yesterday!.
And what's funny was that we don't believe him!.
Thought he was kidding mah =X
LOL.
I think all KWs are hard to get some trusts man.
Serve them right la!. =P
Then the rest went for work, some for movie and other events.
Left me and Hao to shop.
Then went back home round evening time.
Hao went boon's house, and me, home sweet home.
Study session with Huiyi in Mac after that.
Love mac now, our house sia.
Managed to complete my part on MCT report discussion last night.
Muahahahs.
What a relief.
Alright, and my free time now besides projects is study study and study!.
Was in msn chat yesterday night.
Then chat with him =)
He's working in the same place as 2 Jie now.
Wanna visit 2 jie and him today ltr de...
But I'm super weak now...
Besides Pasir Ris, no energy to move anywhere.
Gomen nasai again...
Hais.
I miss his face. =X

Hokay,
my activity today is:
1.Study now
2.Go uncle's house
3.Study session with Huiyi in Mac ltr.

Announcement for the day:
1. Those who wanna go watch Enchanted, watch 1st bah. Can ignore me.
2. Will be MIA next week, so next sat might not be able to swim =X Sry =(
3. I hope 2 Jie can take gd care of herself.Since it's a long time I haven't see her.

Manda des.

Today is such a teary day for me.

Due to...
1. A red mark for lecture quiz again.
It neva change for the beta.
It always gets to the worse.
you can give lotsa reasons why I did so badly but all I could say there are excuses.
Come to the point that I'm such a dumb student.
Anger rises and disappointment just don't fade away.
getting such a result makes me feel more dumb.
Yes I know I am.

2.Dreamed of my uncle and he doesn't seems to be good up there.
I heard his voice and his name.
Somebody called him and somehow I took a glance on him.
He had a slashed through his face, head a bit dented and I can see stitches too.
He seemed to be hiding from me.
I don't know why...
But at the point, I didn't know how to react,
just to see him peaking at us, or maybe me alone.
Cos I dunno hu's around me too.
Once I opened my eyes and recall the scene,
it hurts alot.
I don't feel it scary at all, thought I would.
Why he left us so early...
yes yes it's an incident I know...
but why it falls on him?...

How much more am I going to lose?.
One day I may die with nothing, am I right?.
I may die with lotsa hatred and disappointments I'd in life.

Alright some happy things to share too =)
Yes great this week is over,
managed to clear 2 rather important ppt presentation.
Didn't really feel nervous,
it's just too cold inside the room.
And Matty had entertained the class with his "er hmm", "oh nvm", etc.
He's born with all his craps in his mouth man.
And it gonna be a bonus to him in future.

After then, we went to downtown to makan.
Had Pataya rice for both me and Huiyi.
It was nice but I feel there's room for improvement la.
LOL.Not enough taste.
And our stomach wasn't satisfied.
So KW dropped us at central,
and we strolled along the new pasam malam opposite central.
Nah... unhealthy food again.
Went on to sweet-talk to buy milk tea.
Suck and talk again.
Btw, the Dough house had changed it's outlook and concept.
Turned to Bake Inc.instead.
However, the shop remains the same and ya la,
smart of them to save the renovation fee.
LOL.

Okay, from here, please rewind it back to wednesday.
Had dinner with 6 meis.
Thx for having the short accompany that day.
At least I had laughed heartily and released my stress.
Talk bout 2 Jie but I'm wondering if she even have time to view our blogs.
I did blame her for not being able to acc us.
Is it cos of Javier I dunno, but I just wanna say
"Everyone is olwas busy, it's just a matter whether u make that initiative to spare some times for others."
Even a short time to crap and laugh, it's good enough isn't it.
Yes this time I'm very cruel, cos i can't accept a lot of things now.
I wonder if I'm really an 'angel' to have spared so many peeps with their very obvious and ridiculous excuses.
No more from now on.
I just can't accept.
Manda gets pissed off easily and she has no patience.
Manda won't be bullied again.
Manda gonna kills whoever that obstructs her way.
See, this is how an ASS I can get to.

I lose too much things to bare the hurts.
All I can do now is to hurt others.
God, am I right now?.
It may sounds so wrong,
but it's somehow fixed.
I don't intend to live on,
maybe let me get my stuffs done and feel free to shorten my life.
Perhaps many ppl dislikes me now.
Maybe even my closest jie meis may dislike and feels me irritating.
Think I'm just living on to take good care of my uncle's phone.

Alright, more to do ltr.
MCT lab report.
There's neva endings for work.
It just keeps compiling.

Ohaiyo gozaimasu!. =)
Doing research and blogging at the same time.
Argh... No music.
Okay, YOUTUBE then!.
I'm hoping that this post will be long,
to fulfill the week's requirement.
Wonder if I've time to blog that often.
Doubt on myself.
LOL.

These days, reviewing my life, recovering from the "depression" I'd past few weeks.
It's really a disaster lah -.-
Calling for death whenever I've problems,
this really show the real weakness in me.
Hating nobody but myself.
Why am I born to be in such a pathetic state.
But come to think of it,
it's life lah.
God gives you what u're suppose to have.
NO one is perfect,
so why compare?.
I'm ugly, stupid, slow and whatever you can name it out.
But I have some mature thoughts that perhaps can help me out in LIFE?.
Yah.. Gotta accept the fact and get on moving.
One more year for Poly to end.
And I can't imagine what will happen to me if I gonna work alone for SIP.
Hope my friends will be there too -.-

And LIFE teaches what PEOPLE are.
I accept it anyway.
Huiyi you should know it too yea?!.
LOL.

And I feel bad for some reasons.
No point saying out here unless I'm able to compensate.

Wow wow!!~
Loving "way back into love"---> Super nice =)
Love?. where's mine?.
Hahas. No lah.
Am I even fit enough to get involve?.
Hais. Missing him.

Love to ---> My Jie meis,
AF-15 clique,
Weisian & Shermaine
Chilling club

LOL.

Cheers & ganbatte kudasai!.

Muahahahs!.
I'm back! =D
Wau seh... It was a terrible experience last 2 weeks.
Worse than anything I could ever expect -.-
But yup, now that it's close to OVER, I make sure we work closely tgt again and do OUR BEST =)

These days, we've been chasing bus you know!!!.
And it's really funny!.
LOL.
Run and there like chasing an invisible idol =P
If I've time I'll draw it out to show what happened exactly =X LOL.

Today, it's basically a "CELEBRATION" for Huiyi and me.
Some ASSHOLE said he'll bring us to register for the BTT,
and ended up pang seh us for movie -.-
but he never keep his promise
Okay, I'm not angry cos he join the rest for movie,
plus I hate his PROJECTS.
Whoever he wanna flirt with, I wish him bad luck =X
Come on, don't play the innocent gals out there u ASSHOLE TAN KE WEE!.
As a buddy of urs, I'm disappointed.
Need not try so damn hard to make up for me, cos it's a NO USE.
I hate ppl doing things for SHOW.
I'm not an actress, so don't get me and Huiyi involve ks =)
ASSHOLE.
Pissed off by such person.

Anyway, ppl changes.
So I gotta accept it.
Hais.
Wadeva, I enjoyed myself today.
Had fun.
So long haven't had such laughters from me.
Btw, all tests to me were fine, but I can't guarantee all pass la.
I did my best, I'm glad enough =D
Next round, gotta AIM FOR SMTH.
Ganbatte kudasai!.

Arigato Huiyi san for the shade!. =D
It's damn cool la.
Iyo, owe u one!. =X

Muahahahahahs.
Okay, oyasumi kudasai minasan!. =)

This is such a torturing la.
First time do project till I cry out.
Scared my korkor.
Korkor, thx ar... U've been olwas tolerating my bad temper.
Only way to repay u is to treat u nicer in future. LOL.
So damn pissed off.
I shall reflect my opinons to these ppl then to Huang Yan.
I'd done my part, after lotsa editing -.-
Huiyi too.. Know she's sort of agitated and stressed up too.
Goman nasai, u have a very dumb group member like me,
but I'm doing my best, and my shares.

Alright, have lots to do.
But what I gotta do now, is rest.
Hais.. kanna diarrhea today -.-
Went to poo just now T.T

Btw, thx Hao, Rin and WS for all ya encouragements. =)
I will try my best de.

Domo arigato gozaimasu!.

Sayonara~

I feel so stressed up la.
Why must I help her to so her part?.
Unless she's proactive, or I don't see the reason why.
It's so unfair, in fact, god has never been fair isn't it.
Really sudden thought of committing suicide, is this the optimum stress level I can get to?.
I think it's rather low -.-
I'm weak.
Mentally weak.
It's like I have to clear up people's mess, and when I can't get to certain standard, I gotta redo it like today -.-
It's like so pissed off la T.T
What I can do is to cry and cry...
crying in silent while finishing up all those mess.
I don't hate the project, I feel it fun indeed.
But it's torturing to do so much stuffs =X
I felt so humiliated for no valid reason out of sudden.
Now I'm still left with Jap presentation and MBIO tutorial ws.
Dead, so much to do la.
Can I fall sick again?.
I wanna be sick 4eva, I wanna die, I don't like my life since very long time ago.
I see no reason to live on.
Not at all.

Depression~

Yoyo peeps I'm back again!.
My blog is rather dull now.
Not much picture to share -.-
How I wish holidae nears me XP

Hais. I skipped I-Guides camp again -.-
Hey not cos I did it purposely, it's really due to projects and that I don't feel well too.
I know some will be very unhappy with me,
apology won't suffice,
so I'll keep it low profile then.
I do hate myself,REALLY.

Mum has been missing Ojiisan badly these days.
And with all the good memories he left for us,
I can only say, I miss him very much.
It's damn hard to accept such tradegy,
but no one would ever expect that =(
His phone will be with me,
I'll maintain it well.
Something he left behind and I can take care of.

I had so much to say, but I really forgot.
My STM getting serious le,
one day I may forget a lot of ppl.
Omg, wad will happen to me then.
-.-

Life and death,
it's just a matter of word.

Love,
the random.

Omg!.
I'm so freaking tired T.T
Omg!.
See, I'm scolding vulgarities again.
Manda STOP IT!.
Alright, basically today is CCN, then our care group sells drinks.
Profits earned shall be kept confidential.
LOL.

In the afternoon, Jerry came to find me in school,
so glad to see him lah!.
And he counted...
We'd not seen one another for 1 entire year!!.
See how pathetic it can take to be -.-
Alright, then we chat and me crap again.
Iyo... keep asking whether I got bf...
Don't have la!.. Don't have don't have!!.
Haisyo... And he mentioned that I look plump T.T
"plump", "fat", are enemies to all girls!.
And yet... OMG!.

And yup, ltr gonna meet out the rest for ABCHEM project.
Hope we do smth, yes at least smth.
Jia you!. =)

Shack~

Iyoyo!!..
So tired~
Haven't really studied yet.
Hais.
Horight, gg to study MCT le, wish me luck =D
Byebye~

Muahahahahs...

He chat with me today...

So GAY~

Wadeva, he's enough to brighten up my day.

I'm willing to hear his craps =P

I know I can neva be his choice, but I'm willing to be his shelter if he encounters any rain or shine.

I won't confess I swear, to not be his burden.

I will pray for him lo =D

He is the man whom I think is worth it somehow somewhat~

Lesson learnt todae:
# Rather than complaining, you teach.
# Rather than hurting yourself, you do smth useful to him =)

Ohaiyo minasan.

kyo wa fruitful day ne =)

Had ABCHEM meeting and Japanese tutorial.
Was rather pissed off these days by the problems we had and minimal effort some people can give.
If we have problems, we solve as a group, and not insulting and blaming one particular individual.
It's a group thingy, we gotta do our best, the more we can contribute, the more we're able to get things done well.
Alright, perseverance is what we need to acquire now.

Next, wanna apologize to my gals for not been able to work last sunday.
Had bad fever, bad day~
Hais. Or did I mention it in the earlier post?. LOL.

Last thing of the day, I shouted out in kw's car that I miss HIM a lot.
LOL.
Huiyi knows bout it.
Alright, I'm crazy, I' insane, I'm out of mind, I KNOW.
But I can't help it.
Can I be there for YOU when u need someone?.
Hey I can still be your good fren and nth more than that.
I miss the supper and late nites revision.
Argh...
I can only msg you and act as if I'm giving a random and disturbing msg.
But u didnt even make an effort to relpy my last msg.
What's the matter with you?. And what's happening in your world now?.
Is it that I'm not fit enough or simply you have someone else?.
I hate myself for liking you cos it somehow occurs at the wrong time wrong person.
I know your scandals but what can I do?.
I don't even dare to mention that to u -.-
Hais. Wadeva. I'm tired and it's time I really gotta wish you happy and healthy~
A piece of misses which you can't and neva can sense it.
It's like we're from different world, not knowing one another at all.
RRRRrrrr... You gay~

Announcement of the day:
* Jap tut w/o Frenly and Marissa is exceptionally boring!. =X
* I wanna start my revision le -.-
* I give up le. Freeze my mind and misses.
* Happy Birthdae to Hao Hao!. =D
* Happy Birthdae to Hao's Mummy tml on 14th Nov 07
* I miss my Jie meis.

Sayonara!~
Manda san.---> She's a DUMB.

Ohaiyo gozaimasu minasan!. =)
It's morning le, 12:30am

This post will be rather short.
Wanna thanks alot of people.
To lotus peeps, my QJM, my family, AF-15 clique plus HuiYi and KeWee and Marissa,
thx for giving me such a wonderful birthday surprise =)
Went to K for 2 subsequent days with Af-15 and my Jie meis.
TIme to organize one with lotus peeps le,
or I'll feel so guilty la =(

Btw, he's back.
He's back again..
But this time,I'll know how to control my own feelings.
We tok and yup, we'll be frens and let nature takes its place bah.

Thx Mama, caused u to have spent so much.
Love you so much!.
Be it a cheap jewelery, I know where I stand in you.
Cost u such a big bomb, made me feel sorry, cos tt's the exchange for your hard work these days.
No leaves for you.
=(
Love you mama no matter wad =)
Thx to my 2nd bro for the cake too =)
Touched. =X
And my fatty bro for entertaining me these years =P

Love ya guys muacks!. =)

Love,
Manda* sweet 18

Yo peeps!.
Back again~

Had a damn short day today.
Amic lab and this marks the end of school.
lol.
But lab was rather boring but at the same time fun.
Thanks to Mr Loh whom neva fails to entertain us!.
He's so cute lah!.
And yes CUTE =D
But don't think so much sia, he's kind of plump, that's why he gave me kind of familiarity as my eldest brother.
lol.
And once I enter the lab and see the bread on the bench,
got so excited and voiced out that I wanna have it for breakfast.
At the end of class, Mr Loh responded " If you don't mind, u can take it. Cos we're actually using it for lab purpose la. To make it turn mouldy by right. So yup, u want some?."
"omg, no thanks, I rather have coffee bread~ and not a mouldy bread!." was my reaction.
-.-
Eeeeeehhhhhh~

Anyway, had fun la!.
Had lunch with my cliques again at the coffee shop opp TP.
Went home and rushed back school for I-guides interview again.
Thought there will be a crowd, but ended up to be so empty.
But hey, I'm so glad la!.
Cos dun have ta wait, Han Ping interviewed us and that Carmen, Frenly and Marissa joining the Logistic sub com, cheered me up alot alot =D

Then... anymore I wanna add on arh...
can't think of any...
oh yah, now my turn to do proposal le lah...
sians.
But thx goodness it's a group work thingy, so needn't be that stressed up.
Done some research, gonna print out tml for discussion le.=)
Tml's lect starts at 11am!.
Yeah!.
Meeting Gala too!.
Can chat again!.
WOoooHOOOoooo~

Oh yah!.
I wanna thx 1 Jie here again!.
For making the effort to go down to velocity square to check for my high heels!.
Omg!. I'm really touched la..
But yah, love ya 1 Jie!.
But since there's no faith getting it so forget it bah.

From smth so simple, I learn to treasure more~
From smth I see by my naked eyes, my sixth sense already tell me all about it clearly.
I may be a dumb sometime, I won't in terms of TIME.
Whatever happens, I'll still be there to help u la.
Hais.
Take care anyway~

Ganbatte kudasai Da Tou san!~
Woots!.
Jap tut tml =)

Love,
to all~

First of all,
thx 1 Jie and 6 Meis for acc-ing me to buy my shoes!.
lol.
Though there's no everlast shoe le,
but at least gt a decent one to wear for my coming lab.
Anyway, arigato gozaimasu!.

Have so much fun shopping with my jie meis!.
Friday, we went to many places.
lol.
From tamp>>> bugis>>> Raffles place>>> Golden shoe>>> Somerset>>> Heren
Saturady, we went few places only, but enjoyed alot!. =)
From tamp>>>City Hall>>> PR Coastal Sand

Saturday was Chris's birthday chalet.
Tanjobe omedeto gozaimasu Chris san!. =D
(Happy Birthday)
Hahahs.
And so dunny la, he drank too much till he vomited.
Hence from this event, realised that our Sotong ancestor Xiuqi is a caring and nice gf =P
So glad to see Meiqi Ahyi and Sotong Jie yesterday too!.
Good time playing and laughing out loud =)

Having lab tml at 9am.
Hais, though sians, but yeas, ganbatte kudasai Manda!.
Deskimasu!. =)

Hurts to see him smoke...
No reason why...
=X

Sayonara!. =)

Konbanwa!.

Today is so lame~

Went for an hr of MCT lecture today,
had another round of breakfast in Design canteen with dearie Mich, Carmen,HuiYi & Issac.
Omg.
This is the 1st time I eva heard the news of human eating foetus!.
Wtf!!.
Don't ever let me who do this, or I'll really bash these pervets up!.
RRrrrr...
This little things are so innocent and yet those ppl took up their lives.
Human can still survive with vegetables!.
Duh!.
Really mad bout this!. =X

These days, I've been frenzied over okichan (babies)!.
Heehee...
Hope I'll have lotsa kids in the future.
But.. where's my love first?.
Hais. I don't need very charming look, I just need someone able to share joy and sorrow with me.
I don't need him to be super nice to me, even if he knocks my head lyk stupid kiwi does, i don't mind too!.
lol. But that doesn't mean kiwi is in my list la. -.-
Eeeehh... I'll suffer under his big evil hands!.
and I somehow find somebody whom suits me.. but ya..
needs further observation la.. lol.

And yeapy!.
Lect on fri will be ending early at 1pm!. =D
No MCT by that Huang Yan.. Whew~
Alright, looking forward to tml, cos meeting 1 Jie to Bugis to shop for my bag!.
Wish me good luck in finding my bag hao mah?!.
Domo arigato!. =)

I'm Smiling~ =D

Happy day for me ~

I wanna say that...
Though life is full of downs and ups,
I wish I would know how to appreciate the happy times I'd so far.
Though I'd lost some precious things,
I wish I can keep those sweet memories in me & cont'd with my journey.
Learn to fall and pick up yourself,
ya just gotta do it.
Life is like a book,
happening in each and every chapters.
No matter what the content is, olwas look on the brightest side of life.
The sun will still rise and shine on you =)

Hai!. Ganbatte kudasai!.
As for me, ganbarimasu!. =D

Love,
Contented

Konbanwa (good evening)!.
Ogenki desu ka (how are you)?.

Yeah man!.
Today is officially the first day of Year 2.2
Whether it's considered bad or good I can't tell.
lol.
Alright, basically, thx to Huang Yan's suggestion of bringing out PBL for ABChem.
God, dunno how I gonna endure e-learning again.
It's basically like Fpath last sem?.
Rrrrr... dislike it.
But at the same time, don't mind trying too la.

Had lunch with AF-15 cliques in Mensa 2.
Love them to loads!.
Woohoo!~
Had Dory fish from salad bar, nah. Forgot to take pict again -.-
lol.
But doubt I have time to do so!.

After lunch, went to Jap tutorial with Frenly and Marrisa.
Great thing that Ivan in the same class too!.
lol.
Wad a coincident =)
And Shigeta san is our sensei (teacher) for tutorial then.
She's damn polite la.
Everything san san san... then hai hai hai..
lol.
We must learn their culture too.
And I'm so loving and excited to quickly start the lecture man!

On the way back home,
passing by the coffee shop near KFC,
miss uncle san alot...
Recall the days when he called out my name when I walked past him (as usual my head olwas face straight),
and lots more memories I can't bear to even think.
Though it's painful... everyone of us is trying hard to let it go.
Come on.. life still carries on...
Hais.

Tired le~
Gonna tuck in soon, same to ya guys!.=)
Sayonara!.

Love,
to uncle esp.

So tired now~
and warm!.
Think had too much sunburn this afternoon bah T.T

Went swimming with 1 Jie & 6 meis just now in tamp =)
And hais.. still havent really know how to swim.
Am so lousy =(

But yeah, gt my tan but don't feel well now leh T.T
Now in 1 Jie's house, gonna give qin a surprise ltr tgt with her 'bros'. lol.

Alright, tt's all I wanna say...
So tirrrrreeeedddd~
lol XP

Datou

Hokay, should be back to study mood soon.
School gonna reopen in no time, and what's more,I'm shuffled to other class again -.-
This time is TF03, from TF02 last semester.
Hais.
Whatever it is, should I call it unfortunate or what.
Dots.
But yah, will be in the same class with few classmates from caregroup AF15.
Dearie Mich, Lifang, Shiying etc.
Wonder how my new clique will be like -.-
Hahahas.
Whatever it is, Mich rings my life for sure in the new class =D
Thanks gal, we're destined to be tgt again =)
And great!. Shakir will be joining us too isnt it?!.
Nope, I find nth's wrong with him, he's really a nice person, just with some personality problems.
No one is perfect pls bare that in mind.
Right from the day I turned 16, life's never great for me.
Even if there is, it just ended so soon.
But come on, no matter how god hated me, wanna torture me,
I gonna stand right up firm and never be beaten down.
Never think I'm a failure, must be confident Manda!.
Though u're such an ass in the past, u must prove yourself in the new sem, end your yr 2 with pride man!.
Good news to share, gonna have Jap for CDS coming sem!.
It's Jap!!. I've been hankering for that since yr 1 sem 2!!.
Come on come on here's the reward!.
lol.
I sound so crazy.
Yes, back to Manda again.
Don't emo le Manda, you gotta leave your past and move on.
And really thanks Edmund (the predential sweet talker lol.)for all the enlightenment he gave.
Since you have both happy and sad to pass your time,
why not live happily?.

Alright, ltr gonna meet Hao to study.
Yup, STUDY.
She'll be studying, I'll be muggging my CLEO magazine.
lol.
Okay, cya guys!.

Love,Manda

A delightful day to start and olwas rmb =)
It's my 2nd uncle's ROM this day.
We all had fun too =D
Here's a simple slideshow to share with ya guys =)

The next day was so beautiful to me...
Sweet morning and I made myself a treat (waffle cum ice cream cum kiwi combo) =D

Went out with my 1 Jie,Jie fu,4 Jie, 6 Meis and Tony to LP partyworld.
Then we sang so heartily...
and bad news came...
which some of you may know what had happened.
I need not elaborate more.

After that very dreadful day...
I feel like stabbing my heart more till it's numb.
Everything turned so dull...
Where's my light huh...
Up till now, I'm still not well.
Not well at all.
But I believe I'm ready for school?.
Wanna drown myself again.
Yes I gonna do this.

And a word to add...
"What a gal wants, isn't wad a gal needs"
I may love to have a bf to be dote on, but that isn't what I need.
Don't push me for that, cos for whatever reasons I can produce,
it's all NO.
It may serve as a sin, but somehow I think it's unfair to me.
Everyone has his or her right to choose the right path, if I feel uncomfortable, why should I jump into the river and hurt myself more?.
No one can feel the phobia and hurt more than I do now,
this gonna drag on till a certain time when I'm ready and confident enough to push myself for a change.

And yup..
Thanks Huiyi for your listening ears =)
So grateful of that.
Today I'm back to myself.
But I just don't feel right.

As for my birthday presents peeps,
I just can't think of any.
Just ignore that day,
it isn't impt anyway.
Just a grim day for me to endure the lost I had.
Omg.. I really miss my uncle..
how...
He's the uncle I adore & respect the most.
Rest in peace uncle,
I'm convincing myself that you'd gone oversea and just neva be back.

Alright, that's all I have for the day.
Byebye~

Just woke up from a funny dream... lol.
But yah, lazy to type it out. XP

Going to the funeral soon ltr.
Gonna meet 1 Jie and 6 meis to walk over there.

Thx peeps for ya concern =)
and esp to 6 meis and Tony whom came from far to acc me yesterday nites.
I dunno what more to say but still thanks.. =)

Now that I accept it's an accident le.
I'm facing it le.

Love,
to ALL

爸妈一早就出门了。。
早晨是多么的凉啊。。。但心情毕竟是承重的。。。
现在的我不知该做些设么才好。。
所以只好往户联网钻。

看了报章报道后， 我的心情更是平静不下来。。。
好讨厌这种感觉啊。
可是我还有选择吗?.
四年前死神夺走我爷爷，
如今又抢走我舅舅。
这未免太可恶了吧！
每一次但我想乘机会对身边的人好一点，为何最是做不到呢？！。
舅舅的手机还在我手上。。
不久前才更他谈论手机的事。。。
他说要买一架最新款的。。。
但现在呢。。。他没机会买了。。。

甚至我很讨厌自己。。。
不懂得珍惜。。。
如今失去了才来忏悔，还来得及吗林洁怡！。。。

人生就是如此吗？。

There are too many unpredictable things in life.
You can't avoid, simply to accept the fact.
It happened too fast to even react.
I hope it was a joke, I won't be angry!.
But ya... it's not.. it's true.

Seriously, I still can't accept the fact now...
but ya.. now uncle is gone..
he left his old phone with me...
I gonna keep that phone forever by my side,
cos that's the only thing where nice memories remain.

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/305323/1/.html

Ohaiyo Gozaimas!. =D
lol.
If you don't understand it's okay...
cos I dunno whether it's spelt correctly not!!.
Hahahahs.
Gonna ask Meiqi Ahyi le XP

Okay!. Here are some pict for ya guys to enjoy.
But bad shots from me =X

Last week...
Went to Jerk thai near Bugis street with 1 Jie, Jie fu and 2 Jie =)


Jerk Thai~
Tom Yam soup~ Yummy!. =D
2 Jie's seafood noodle~
Jie fu's beef hor-fun~
Mine and 1 Jie's seafood hor-fun~ Oishi neh!. =D

After that, me and 1 Jie went for eye extension at 5o bucks each.
lol.
Cool!~
But lazy to take photo of that XP

In the evening, Lice, her mama and korkor came to meet us for dinner =)


This is our 7 meis, Lice~ lol.
And her mama and korkor buying sausage and drinks while waiting.. =)
As for dinner, we didn't take much photo. =X
but nvm, we know we had lotsa fun! =D

Next day, went out to temple with my aunt and cousin.
He didn't take any photo of his,
but he's a cute little boy la =)



And during the journey back home, he lent me his nice comics to read =)

Yesterday, went to work in Fuurin, had so much fun and jokes!. =D

Going to work with 2 Jie!. =)
Heh heh~
2 Jie posing!. lol. No lah, just a random shot. Nice right!. =P
And our sexy colleague posing too!.
And me posing too!. =D

Today is my uncle's ROM!.
Yea yea!!. So cool =D
heh heh.
My mother hor!!. Cheat my feelings!!.
Say 10am gotta leave the house, then end up the ceremony starts at 12pm plus sia!!.
Waste my time lah!.
End up I'd already put on my make ups. -.-

Peeping at my father in the living room XP
Hais.. while waiting.. I shall slack and surf the net...

Okay, update ya guys again ltr bout ROM!. =)

Love,
manda~

Wahahas.
Finally get to blog le.
Sry for being so lazy, but seriously was rather busy these days =X
However, I enjoyed every days of mine.
Work, yeah I'm a damn workaholic.
That's what I found out this vacation.
Tony actually intro me a job as labtop promoter and yessa it was fun!. =)
Met a lot of new friends, let me name them..
Wang Tian cai, Cheng Hanwei, Micheal, Menferd, Sandy, Mr Ang, Mr Ong and 2 Eyvonn!.
lol.
Really learnt a lot these 2 short days.
Thanks Tony for being so kind to me lah!!.
Let me rest and buy food for me =)
Thanks thanks =)
And the testi you sent really touched me sia.
No lah, I'm not that hardworking lah =X

And loved my 2 gals!!.
1 Jie and 6 meis =)
For coming down to Tao payoh and support me!. =D
And we actually discussed what happens if we haven't met during secondary school..
I think I won't be that cheerful now le..
It's like living for others instead of myself?
Looks chim right?
lol.
but yah, think the gals will understand.
Iyo, no matter what, now that we've met, I believe and have faith that we'll be forever tgt!. =)
Wahahahas. =P

Then received a real bad news yesterday.
Feel sad and yet no solution to it.
All I can do is to pray... =(
No matter what, I trust miracles happen!!.
Come on, gotta try!!.

Alright, basically that's all for these days.
And yeap, peeps pls take good care of your own health!!.
For those who smokes, not asking you to quit, but try to minimize your bad habits.
For the rest, drink lotsa water!.
Weather is so unbearable -.-

Okay,
Love to ALL!. =)

Iyo...
Nth to say.
I accept almost everything.
Yes, anything~

I'm lazy to post right now...
cos there's a nice show right now on channel 8!!.
lol. Pls pardon my laziness XP
Gonna post some pictures here for ya to 'enjoy'..
Hmm accidentally cut my finger. Realised that the original dull red blood color of mine turned out to be bright red here. Cool huh.
met 1 Jie and 2 Jie to work in Fuurin =) Had Han River for lunch =D Rather cheap and nice la.
had chicken set for myself...
The gals tucking in too...lol.

And our deserts after the main!!. Choc ice cream for 2 Jie and Pudding for both me and 1 Jie.
"One day one pudding, keeps all troubles away!."
After all fun and laughters, we're back to work....

After a busy-cum-clumsy day (for me)....
1 Jie trying to kiss me!!.
Help ar!!.

Tomboy: Btw, what u called me for that nite??..
Him: huh?? When is it??..
Tomboy: The nite when you're having taekwondo or smth..
Him: haha.. I can't remember le la...
Tomboy: Hahas. Nvm la, just happen to remember it.
Him: Hahas really can't remember it...

If that so, I really gotta tell myself to end everything.
The thoughts and stuffs.
Why must I hurt myself?.
If it isn't urs, why persist?.
I'm olwas glad that we're good friends..

Hahas.
Was astonished by some news the day before.
The breadshop I'm working at will be closed down on 15 Oct if I'm not wrong.
Was ready to tell them that I gonna quit but think I wasted my effort then XP
Aunty Serene called to give me my pay and told me the GOOD-cum-BAD news.
hmm..
GOOD- I hate working with some assholes there and that they really treat me like a bull?!. =(
BAD- Can't bear to leave Ah kym cos she's the nicest gal whom treated me the best there??.
And one whom recognize me as a human?. Gonna buy her some present someday bah =)
Though there are so much thing I hated bout the place, but I missed working there.
Missed putting in the bread into the plastic bag -.-
Missed saying GOOD MORNING to some NICE CUSTOMERS
Missed making waffles
Okay, think that's all I missed XP

Alright, practically nth to talk much today.
Oh yah, went Huiyi's house to cook fried rice!.
Thanks to her mummy whom guided us =D
Will upload the pict some other days =D
Cos I dunno how yet XP

Erm... what else..
So many events this month.
may or may not look forward -.-
Hais.
kks, take cares peeps!. =)

Hope..
6 meis & 1 Jie & Jie fu to get beta soon.
to see him soon.
to have a shopping spree soon!!. XD

Hmm let me think what happened yesterday...
.
.
.
Oh okay, met 1 Jie and Jie fu at tamp bus int.
Then moved on to ezlink (Did I spell it correctly??..lol) to have dinner.
After dinner, proceed on to City hall.
And 1 Jie... spend money again!!!.
Hahas.
She bought a nice red shoe at Bata.
Iyoyo..zhen zao gao.
I'm tempted too.
Aiming the army green shoe,
gonna buy when pay comes!!.
Wahahahs.
After that, working time in Lotus Grill!!.

Initially it was me and 1 Jie working in Riverbank with Mr Moon de.
End up Yi Qian didn't manage to come,
so I have to go down to Boat 1 and 1 Jie gotta work with Trudy and Mr Moon -.-
Wth.
We're really not fated to work tgt man. =(
RRRrrr..
But working in Boat 1 with Desmond and Alex is actually fun too.
Lotsa jokes, especially that Desmond lah!!.
He tells joke with that very funny expressions on his face,
makes me laugh more!!. lol.
Both of them thought that i dislike working with them,
cos I made myself so busy.
It's cos I know they'd been working for long hours these days,
so try to lighten up their workload lo.

And a kinda interesting thing I encountered during work yesterday.
Was clearing this table and stacking lotsa plates at once.
This elder son of the family looked stunned when he saw me carrying so much plates.
And I'm really grateful to him cos he actually helped me to stack up the heavy plates too.
Hahahas.
I'll olwas remember the puzzling look and courtesy from this boy.

The day before this,
received call from bloody cat.
And he actually used discussion as an excuse to invite me to his house!.
Omg, I feel like stabbing this kind of ppl.
To me, such kind of ppl is indeed brainless and useless.
He's a tutor, but I think he lack some potential no matter how much education he'd gotten.
whatever, I'll never contact such ppl anymore.
He looks like a perfect gay to me.

Oh yah, Mr Marlo Callaghan is gg to Vietnam for his GC.
WhooHooo whooHooo!.
And yes he's right, my head will feel pleasured w/o his presence.
lol. Of cos la duh.
Okay, bon voyage Callaghan!.
And take good care too.

Gonna meet Huiyi soon to send that Callaghan off.
lol.
Then have subway ltr!!.

Thanks 1 Jie for lending me 2 bucks yesterday night!.
All no supper for hungry me then =(
So nice of mum this morning.
Gave me allowance though she need not too.
Thank you Mummy!!.
Love you Love you!!. =D

Tonight gonna tell Aunty Serene that this week shall be my last week.
Hate breadshop to the core.
Though there are some nice ppl there.
But 2 are enough to light up the flame in me.
I wanna rest and play for this 22 days!!!!.

I was counting the no. of jobs I'd taken in the past.
And surprised that it's 9!!!.
lol.
Just one more will make it a perfect 10.
Muahahahs.
but yah, I'm tired le.
Wanna STOP!.

Okay,
think I'll stop here then.

I start to feel for you again...
Why u called again that night??..
I wanna noe your motive -.-
but I dare not think so much you noe..
But there's this special plc being reserved for you.

Cheers peeps!.

So fed up with the breadshop today.
Auntie Serene already confirmed with me that there's no work today!!.
And yet when I finished swimming this afternoon,
she called to ask me whether I'm free to work tonight.
HELL NO!.
Initially, I'm suppose to work this morning,
but she said Auntie Irene change her shift to morning,
so yah, forget it.
Then now YOU're asking me back again??!.
Like an emergency call which I know will happen.
Too bad, I'm not gonna abide to all these nonsense.
If you dunno what's a middle finger for,
you want me to show you?.
Wtf.
Super pissed off.
Irresponsible ppl doing fuck up stuffs.
RRrrrrrr...
See see..
She called a few seconds ago to ask me work again on saturday morning.
Wau piang!!!.
If not that it's cos of her mum admitted to hospital,
I'll not give a fuck la!!!.
Argh!!!. T.T
Angry, fuming, frenzied!!!!!!....
Can you see the smoke out there???!!!!.

Sorry 1 Jie, caused you to have sun burnt today =(
But thanks too!!>
For teaching me breast stroke.
Though improve a bit but still can't make it leh -.-
Hais, problem lies on me lo.
Nvm, jia you Manda!!. =)
Enjoy a lot moment with my Jie meis and other nice friends =)
Thx peeps for being there olwas!.

After swimming, went to have LJS.
Grilled chicken wrap is nice but ex -.-
Fuurin haven't distribute our pay yet.
So sad T.T
2 days de pay leh.
Can buy my foundation and concealer too.
Hais.
Wanna buy a sunscreen too!!.
Think SPF 30-50 will be enough bah.
I don't wanna ganna skin cancer!!. =(
okok, gonna write out my wishlist le.
Wahahas.
People, my BIRTHDAY coming soon!!.
lol.
Ks lah, so bu yao nian.
Might be organising a chalet or smth for everyone to gather and have fun.
Not yet confirm.
More info will be given in oct =)

Wahahas.
Things I enjoy the most is gathering with my Jie meis and have milk tea!.
And chill with Huiyi and rest too!.
Yeap, we gonna jie pai to become jie meis soon =)
Hahahs. We're like destined to meet one another this lifetime.
So I gotta treasure them alot alot =)
Okay, think this is the only positive post I'd so far?.
Hope it'll all maintain...
Jia you jia you!.
One day if I ever die,
I know I'd lead my life contentedly.

Gonna meet my gals soon at mountain top.
Secret gathering.
Actually is suppose to be aunty chit chatting session la.
lol.
This is my lifestyle.
I simply love it.
And if you hate me for being in such a way,
I'd no choice cos I just wanna be nice and truthful to myself.

Alright.
And one thing is..
I got a call from him.
And unknowingly,
I'm superb happy deep in my heart.

Yes, I'm already in City Hall.
But I came back to Pasir Ris again.
Argh...
Was ready to go to ZOO!!.
But don't know why, my body stops me from moving on.
Physically and mentally disabled today.
Come on, what is happening to me again?.
I felt myself like a psycho.
Somebody losing their way.
On the way home, really hope someone can talk to me.
Guide me to wherever I think I gotta go.
But yah, wth I'm doing now.
Yes, I'm sick.
Sick..
Sick..
To Tonberry peeps:
Sry for the last min delay as I really don't feel well. =(
Will pay ya guys for the tix soon =)
Hope ya guys had fun too.

However, I'm considered lucky to have enjoyed work this morning.
Made chicken burger, Jumbo sausage and both spicy and non-spicy chicken floss bread.
It's easy and fun.
But too bad my camera not enough memory to shoot those breads.
Hais.
I made de leh.
But it's actually very simple.
But I still think that they're not safe for consumption.
Not fresh de lo =(
Then went home early to rest and end up like that..
Hais.
Why today.
A bad day -.-

Something is missing.
Something is dead.
This something simple can't be explained.
Alright, looking forward to tml,
hope will be fine then =)

Take cares everyone!.

Love,
Manda

ya lor..
爱在哪里?.

Hahas.
Whatever it is,
I dare not to even dream of it.
This world is so unreal.
Whenever I recall the very little conversation with him,
I feel so happy and contented.
It's enough,
don't mind not meeting,
don't mind waiting for him to come online late at night,
though I'm very sleepy and tired.
but now...
It's like...
so empty.
Till I hardly come online.
I dislike such a quitter.
but I don't hate him.
See how stupid am I.
To easily have crush on a person.
My weakness.
Blame having a heart,
having a over-matured mind.
Really thanks to him,
I can't get over it since Thursday.
That very special Thursday.

Anyway,
don't talk to me bout my relationship.
Cos I really sucks at this.
To my Jie meis and especially Kiwi,
don't intro me to any guys.
Or I'll feel myself like a gay -.-

Hais..
hope I can find a way out bah.

Vacation will be ending soon in 3 more weeks time.
Though 3 weeks gonna pass.
Not enough at all.
Hence,
october will be all mine.
slack and play!. =)

Karate seems so far far away...
No time to attend the trainings due to work.
It's all due to my sucky arrangement of schedule.
Argh.. what should I do...
I'm wondering whether I'll continue soon..
hmmm... omg..

Gonna work throughout from mon to sun next week.
God bless man.
But I'm sure to stop work when oct starts.

Starts to save some money Manda!.

Seriously,
the more I think of my birthday,
the more I hope I can skip that day.
No idea how I should celebrate.

Aiya aiya...
still a long way to go..
I'm so weird~
Okok.
Gonna stop here le.
So boring~

Loves,
Manda

Today is a rather fruitful day.
Went to uncle's house for Granny's death anniversary.
I'd never seen her,
how I wished I'd known her more.
That is why I regretted so much for not been able to visit my Grandpa often in the past.
Like I said,
past is past.
Don't try your best to treasure someone or something when they're already gone.
Cos it can never cease the guilt.
Hardly.
Alright, then I went to work in Fuurin with 1 Jie and 2 Jie.
Hmm, the operation sucks alot.
Especially the manager.
I dunno her name but I do know she's a fat ass.
She seemed to lack of basic experience cos she can't even bother to brief me what to do.
When I'm NEW there.
She only knows how to eat, walk around and gives useless instructions.
And seriously, I'd never seen such poor management.
She expects me to pick up each and every single work by myself.
And she's damn it smart when she asked me to pass the dish over to B3,
when she hadn't even guide me the table numberings?.
omg.
She really really deserves a smack from me.
Alright, sorry peeps.
I'm not rude,
I don't smack or even touch ppl for no reason.
But somehow, the LADY I'd mentioned really deserve it?.
However, I love working with the gals =)
Love ya gals!.

Btw, if 6 meis is able to work again as usual,
I'm willing to back out cos yea,
I'm not suppose to be there initially.

To my 6 meis:
Know you're tired and stressed out due to school work.
And that you may missed Boon a lot.
But come on,
you have us here.
Whom will always be there for you.
Be it rain or shine!.
Understand how you feel now,
EMO!.
lol.
Which I had too when I'd exam.
But it'll be over soon again yea.
When you feel turned off,
speak it out to us,
you'll really feel beta =)
Love you no matter what =D

You're growing in many ways, and today makes that obvious to the world. Your new maturity could manifest as something totally unexpected, so make sure you're ready to flaunt it when you finally notice it!

Mature?.
Means knowing a lot of the outside world?.
But you know what, it's ugly.
So what if I learned a lot?.
I hate those things happening outside.
Am disgusted.
You would too.
Hais.
How shall I phrase it then.. -.-
So many dreams,
so many hopes,
but the truth destroyed what I'd never owned.
If I were to be strong,
I gotta play along with the game you understand?.
Which genes actually complicates human beings?.
Why are some ppl thinking so much, so deep, and I can tell you,
they are not happy at all.
They are smiling happily on the surface and deeply hurt and wounded in them.
Things that are missing in life,
I treat it as I'd never needed.
Things that hurt me in life,
I treat it as I deserve it somehow.
Things that brightens up my day,
I treat it as a bonus.
I don't wanna live my life through so much regrets!.
NO!.

A rule to be applied in life:
Do not judge a book by it's cover,
cos you'll never know what happens next after a long period of time.
Lost?. Pages turned yellowish?.
You will see then.

I dOn't WaNt tO knOw,
knOw Nth.

Yesterday:
Met 1 Jie and she accompanied me to AMK hub.
Thank you so much 1 Jie!!.
So blessed to have you there!. =)
Then 6 meis came to support me too =)
Work as a part time Pampers promoter and met nice colleagues there.
Thanks Mich for introducing this job =)
Look forward to 9pm, cos I'm meeting the gals soon!.
lol.
Went Sumo House to have Japanese cuisine!.
Wahahas.
1 Jie had Ramen,
while me and Hao had cold noodles with tempura.
Wow!. Cheap and nice!.
Think 1 Jie will upload the pictures soon.
Hahahs.
After everything, met up with Huiyi and Ke Wee to talk.
Then yea, somebody is a real bastard.
Hais.
What's bout Love when you dunno how to Love?.
No, never tell me bout entering a relationship,
I'm tired and sick of such stuffs.
Big NO!.
Whatever happens, family and friends shall come in the first.

Alright, ltr have smth on.
Cya guys then!. =)

Thanks to:
1 Jie & 6 Meis for accompanying and waiting for me in AMK Hub =D
Mich for getting me a nice temp job =)
Huiyi & Ke Wee for the chilling sessions which I think I learnt a lot =)

Cheers,
Manda

Halo peeps =)
All I can say is...
thanks for the concern these days.
I'm sincerely thankful and yes,
I'm blessed with so many nice friends around =D
But yah..
when one's in such a situation,
think it'll be a normal response to my previous post.
No one is wrong bout that,
I mean it, no one.
And especially 1 Jie, u need not feel sorry!!.
I love ya gals so much,
of cos I want the best life out of you!.
No matter how little time ya gals can give me,
I don't mind at all.
Serious =)
It's different now,
different ppl, different life.
And moreover times are changing,
we dunno what will happen yea?.
I can occupy my times with other things else like work and karate and slack at home.
lol.
And we can meet out sometime too,
it's okay de.
As I said, accompanying me = burden to you
Everyone has different perception of such situation,
so we may have arguments,
but all and all, they are avoidable.
I think it's a big mistake to blog it how I feel,
cos the show of emotion somehow attracts attention.
Which is unnecessary and I regretted it very much =(
In the 1st place, I shouldn't have even such idea at all.
This is definitely so wrong!.

I don't wish for anything,
just you guys to be happy and in whichever way ya guys wanna it to be =)
Let me be the companion be it you're sad, happy or angry.
I'm willing to share all.

Jealous doesn't means envy.
Jealous includes unnecessary revenge and hatreds.
Envy brings about blessings and long-term friendships =)

Though I'm not pretty, not nice, not sweet and for sure not good-tempered.,
I'm willing to learn from all above.
To a person with full of flaws like me deserve nothing at all.
Wait is what I can do.
So yah, don't worry yea.
Hope time will give me an answer one very day =)

Hokay,
take cares peeps!.

And yessa,
so happy!. Gonna work in Grill soon tml =D
With Hao and Cindy =)
WOOOoooooOOOOoooots!.
Hope they will need someone last min,
and 1 Jie can join us.
any other staffs gonna pang seh Sam tml?
Can reserve that place for 1 Jie?.
So hope that she can work with us.

And next Wed Hao can't join us to work for the Lackerol promotion.
Why RP start school so early T.T
Seems that we're all not fated to work tgt =(
But nvm, we may be planning to meet her after work.
So yah, chill~

Hokay peeps,
time to watch TV.