I see others falling out of love.
I see others falling so deep in love.
In a brand new year this coming midnight, my wish for everyone to stay Healthy & Loving. (:
Who cares you're a single or not, LOVE has so much meaning in them. (:
I LOVE my family & friends & Jie Meis...
but this year,
I met him and I LOVE him too. (:

Sorry, cos...
I'm petty
I get jealous easily
I get angry w/o having a valid reason
I can't take jokes
I think too much
I'm not sweet enough
I expect too much from you
I believe too much in fairy tales

In a new year, I will be better (:
Who cares you care or not, now I realize it's good to not care & just go for it.

You never know what happens the next day,
so don't waste time getting sad for nth.
"Need not worry, as tml will worry for itself."
I'm so inspired by this quote,
cos I'm using this strategy now. (:

HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone!.
2009 le.
CHINESE NEW YEAR coming le...
So looking forward.
LOL.
Random shit.
Enjoy this festive season!.
HoHoHoHo.

*I believe to love and be loved*

Thanks Peeps!.
Thanks god I passed =D
Everything is so unbelievable... cos I'm able to pass.
Hence, to rest of you whom are taking your TP soon,
no worry man SURE CAN PASS!!! (:

-2:45pm-
I'll be damn nervous this time.
It's my first driving practical test.
Need not wish me luck, just pray that I won't mount kerb, and tyre won't roll back can le.
[[Jia you]]
Thanks to all peeps whom wished me luck earlier.
I will........ jia you de!

Results will be updated here.
FAIL/PASS

I didn't realize how stress I can get to in my company now.
To just draw and make an animation can make me shiver,
and can't sleep well at night.
Tell me, how to not THINK?
This is so illogical.
I cried at night, telling myself to cry more so I'll feel better,
and you tell me there's NO POINT crying.
I need to SPEAK, you ask me to SLEEP.
I can't SLEEP, you ask me to think of you,
what's the point?
I'm like battling alone.
Like I always did in the past.
Is there any difference now...

I learned my own lesson.
In future I'll definitely meet these kind of people,
or maybe a worse kind.
So yah, gotta be prepared and face them well.
I can de, I can battle alone!
Just learn the technique of acceptance and you'll be fine Manda.

I'm so sorry for emo-ing these days...
All bout work -.-
I'm so useless.

But from today onwards,
I'll grow to be tough more.

[[Jia you]] key chain nearly lost yesterday during work.
I almost broke down.
Can't lose that, cos that's my pillar of support during work...
But where's the owner ne...

Nth changes... for the better.

YOYO [:

Friday blue.
Vexing over how the powerpoint can be done.
Even this can make me jump out of sleep.
Wth.
Can'r even rest well.

Why give me such stuffs to do.
I only take a day leave from work for my tp,
but I have ta waste so many days doing these.
Seriously craps.
Don't blame me for complaining.

Though it's simple dinner yesterday.
But I had fun playing and laughing at one another.
LOVE them all (:

Thanks da jie for the Xmas gift, she took a long time doing so many of them ks.
Thanks thanks (:

Thanks Rin, Min, Jian, Hao, Lice, Boon and Leong for the cosy Xmas!
(:

Suddenly feel so lost and stressed up these days.
It's all bout work I can think of now.
It gives this kind of fear I hardly have.
But yah, gotta be strong Manda.
Soon it'll be over....

Thanks to Huiyi & Rin & Stupid shit for your ears that day.
Love ya guys (:

Ignore the comments, do what you can though you really disagree.
I have my own style of doing things, I need not stick to yours.


-[[Jia you]]-

And Merry Christmas peeps!.
Enjoy this special season (:

LOVES to many peeps that includes dearie Mich of cos!.
Hahahas.
*Never will I forget you and rest (:

To my Jie Meis:

I apologize, for a changed person I am now.
There are certain things I wanna change but it's really hard for me.
It takes time I guess.
I am reflecting and always I do.

I just don't feel happy at times.
Maybe I'd cared too much,
bothered too much,
thought too much,
stressed too much,
that brought all these craps in me.

I just wanna say I'm tired,
I want to make a full stop.

Totally moodless today.
Bring me home, back to who I am...

Omg.... Slept for quite a long while, but I'm still freaking tired now -.-
These days I slept too late le,
breakouts coming back again!. T.T
Nvm... just don't think bout it and it'll go away~
Hahahas.
Ya la, trying to console myself.

Going back school soon to get some drafts for my SIP report.
It's really time to start now.
And getting serious Manda.
STOP playing & shopping.
Despite saying that, will be meeting my gals to TM shop shop =D
Wau happy to the max.
LOL.
Stuffs that I wanna hunt for:
-Skirts
-Bottoms (esp skinny jeans)
-Makeups
-Belated pressy for my gals
That's all.
I think I'll go broke soon too la.
LOL.

Waiting for 24th Dec, my next coming allowance! =S
Heh heh.
But hey Manda, you gotta save for your holiday! [:

Stupid shit still sleeping.
He more pro than me lo, chit chat till 6am plus.
LOL.
I think he sure shack one la.
So didn't expect him to acc me shop this afternoon.
But hey! You better come for bowling tonight hor.
Anyway, EAT SHIT EAT SHIT.
Okay la, random.
I don't know what I'm typing too now.
Just purely crapping.

Hahahas.

Oh man... damn shack.
Laboratory work is surely not my cup of tea.
BUT.
I can endure that. [:
23rd Jan 09 shall grant us all our freedom!.
However, we still have SIP report & logbook and MP report & workbook to submit.
This is somehow crazy, we're now left with 6 weeks.
Come one, hell gonna end soon. [:

Have so much thing to do, besides work is shop.
Shop for what?
CNY stuffs!
Like clothes la... tidbits la... decorations la...& etc etc.
Heh heh.
This certainly makes me high.
Sorry for being so auntie.
Just can't help being excited bout it. =D

And Stupid shit should be busy now bah...
Chey~ Don't understand why the vehicle arrive so late.
THIS TIMING? -.-
Kao, or the rest can finish washing them in the afternoon and have a good rest now le lo.
Chey chey~

We have disagreements at times,
but I can't stop laughing over your lame remarks.
When we fight, we tied.

I.L.Y.S.S.

Alright, back to SIP report!
[[Jia you]]

Stupid shit....
Dare bully me again I'll kick ur ass.
Even if you wanna give me up to someone else,
I'll still irritate & cling onto you!.
Bleahx.

Hello everybody! =D



More photos to be uploaded soon...

YOYO!.

Went jogging with Rin & Min in the late evening,
then Hao, Lice & Calvin joined us for bowling at E!Hub.
This Calvin ar, super lame, but very pei he.
LOL. Good good.
We had a fun & crazy night!
With my gals, I never fail to laugh out loud! =D

But...
I brought both my jie jie into tears.
I'm sorry if I'd really said anything inappropriate.
You know what, I realized I'm becoming more straightforward to many situations.
YES or NO, I can reply promptly.
I don't want you girls to get away from the problem,
the more you do,
the more you'll get hurt.
If you tell yourself THEY are changed, THEY are not THEM anymore,
you have to ensure you really convince yourself that.
Make it as a fact, not your motivations.
I know by saying is hard,
I know you girls need the time,
I know ya girls hate to forget,
I know ya girls are suffering mentally almost every day and night,
I know how hurt ya girls feel...
But do you know I'll get emotional too when I thought of the problems ya girls are experiencing...
I don't feel good, and in fact I'll cry.
I don't know why...
I love ya girls too much that I don't hope ta see that tears on your face.
By 'correcting' min yesterday, and seeing her tears, I feel guilty and sad too.
Anyway, just to let ya girls know: I LOVE ya girls! [:

Btw, today is a special day. [:
I'm looking forward.
No worry man, I know what to wear le.
Oh man, thanks girls for the guidance this morning!.
LOL. Really thanks, a sincere one. [:

Mr Loo Wee Leong, you haven't wake up is it?!.
Stupid shit.
Think you rest more too.
Later can then entertain me.
HAHAs.

I don't know what you're preparing for me today,
I only know I'm looking forward to see you today.
Your presence is always more than enough.

Oh yah, as promised, pictures will be updated SOON!.
LOL.
Don't know how many times I'd repeated this phrase,
and it'd been broken for umpteen times.
HAHAs!.
OKOK promised, SOON SOON.

Tc peeps.
Going ta rain soon.

[:

Oh man, realized that I haven't blog for quite some time le.
LOL.
These days were rather down for me.
I'm trying to adapt to the worst situation ever.
Hais.
Must jia you le lo.
I'm tired, really tired.
I hope I can maintain the happy me like today.
As fruitful as possible =D

okok.
Will try to update more with pictures!!!!
Coming soon.
Hopefully on Friday. [:

Tc peeps!

Now then I understand what it meant by "quality of time".
How are you going to treasure the limited amount of time given to you and your love ones.
And one thing to bare in mind, it's really short.
Even if you have that full 48 hours, time will accelerate till it finishes like 48 mins.
-.-
Hahas.
I just feel so.
Weekend was always great for me.
Fruitful enough to share but never enough for me to care.

Alright la, stop my random post.
And again, thanks Da jie for creating such a vibrant blog for me! [:
I love it =D

Some quotes to share:

If you love someone,
Tell them.

The worst thing you can possibly do
is worry about what you could have done.

You must speak to be heard,
but sometimes
You have to be silent to be appreciated.

What comes from the heart,
touches the heart.

The most important ingredient we put into any relationship is not what we say or what we do, but what we are.
- Stephen R. Covey

Thanks for coming into my life,
I'm grateful enough.
You're different, I believe [:
I look forward to seeing our future,
we'll work hard for it! =D

Happy shit!
Met my gals and James yesterday.
Finally [:
I think I really "zhong se qing you".
Things that I do which I never even realize.
I won't again.
I'll try to balance out my time for everyone.
One thing that never changes is my LOVE for ya gals yea! [:

Didn't manage to meet Stupid shit yesterday though he's so near me.
In Coastal Sand...
But nvm, we'll still meet tonight [:
Yeah!
Can bully him le =D
Hohohohoho.

Hao will be gg to Boon's house too.
So yeah! [:

And Saturday, we can all meet out to shop!!!
Oh man, so damn excited.

Hokay, stay happy, and maintain like this Manda Lim.
Smile [:

Curiox BBQ ltr in NUS!
Hooray!
I'm a happy kid today [:

Pictures coming up....

LOVES*

To my friends,
be happy too [:
Tc!

Been rather busy this week.
I hope I'll forever maintain like this...

Been rather unhappy these days.
I don't know how to explain myself.
But yah...
I just don't feel good.

I hate to think.
But that's my nature,
I just don't know why.

Had I neglected anyone?
Or pissed anyone off?
I'm sorry if I did.
Had I not shown concern to friends around me?
That made me feel guilty throughout this week.
No one would ever understand how this feeling is like.
Cos you won't want to,
as it's suffocating.

Alright, time to work.

Jiayou-manda.

Wow.
There's many things I wanna do today.
Kks, hope I can accomplish them at once.
Will be a tough week for me starting from tomorrow.
There's many things which I wanna catch up.

I am so gg to...
1. buy a new blank log book.
2. buy a nice sandal
3. date Stupid shit out
4. Sleep early today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, I'm so god damn worried for my gals yesterday =(
I know ya gals feel alright bout my absence,
but somehow I can't forgive myself for not being able to make it there.
I just hope all the bad silly things can end soon.
And sometime I really have ta say that some guys are really fucked up. -.-

Hokay, end of story.
Hais.
A bit mood-less today~

Wee~

Just came back from my 1st Campus discussion.
There was a commotion after that.
Which I wanna stay neutral bout it.
Alright stern!.
Hahahas.
No la, I'm so glad to see most of my course mates today!
Yeah man.
Didn't change much.
But I believe everyone is getting more mature [:
Not saying ya guys are childish la -.-
Anyway, I just love this morning =D

But after that I dragged myself back home.
Wondering to sleep or wait for rest to meet up.
Not much response from rest now.
I believe we are all slacking away.
And I know Stupid shit is still sleeping.
I know he had a long day yesterday and a tiring week as well.
So yah, I didn't expect him to wake up not until 3pm.
This is what I reckon.

I can't deny myself being a "thinker".
One whom can get a single stimulation and run thoughts for whole day.
I am... yes I am.
I am happy, yet confused.
Things I learned so far:
1. Never make any expectations in any types of relationship. You accept what it already is.
2. Do not think too much, just keep on believing that this relationship will last long.
3. Act, don't say.

Alright enough of my craps, it seems that today's outing will be late.
So yeah, I will go take a nap and wait for SOMEONE to call.
Stupid shit is still sleeping.
Eat shit la!
LOL.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY to Hao yest!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Hao's Mommy!

Oh man.
Feel terrible today.
Took flu med in the morning,
and now gotta suffer in lab by nearly-fall-asleep.
Trying to keep myself awake by all means.
Now indulging in a pile of work and gosh really bth.
But I guess my cough and flu are subsiding.
Whew.
Quick quick go away virus.

Can't imagine I'd took so many days of MC.
I hope this is the first and last time!
There's much more thing to do you know you know...
And yea!.
Stupid shit booking out this evening. [:
Looking forward to see this shit.
And will be meeting Jie too!!
For a simple dinner in Pasir Ris area.
Hais.
So hope I can have western for dinner tonight.
Craving not that strong,
but still WANT.
LOL.

Iya stop my crap and start work again!!
Jia you! [:

LOVES*

This week is the sickest week I can ever get -.-
Germs ar, please leave me soon can?
I have lotsa work to do! =(
This week is a crucial week for Curiox in promoting our products.
Then I'm so looking forward to this event...
and WELL DONE!.
Here I'm coughing and flu-ing away.
Piang.
Lousy shit -.-
Alright, will be gg to see doctor soon le [:
Hey Luo zhan fu, see, I really got see doctor hor, don't say I lie again.
Sure show u my MC to prove I did it.
Bleahx!. =P





Hopefully Stupid shit can have nites-out today then can meet him for a while [:
I keep saying "nvm la, don't need la, come fore what, go rest la..."
BUT whatever I say are like the opposites.
LOL!
This is so terrible la, 5 days can't tahan not meeting one another le,
so in future how?!
Stupid shit and Manda!
REN! =X
Hahas..
But no worry, my ma zi is forever my ma zi.

Hello!
Picture time, as promised [:

Celebration with my Jie Meis! =D Special thanks to:
1 Jie aka Rin
2 Jie aka Min
3 Jie aka JW
4 Jie aka Alvin
6 Meis aka Hao
7 Meis aka Lice
Jimmy aka Gay shit
6 Meis Fu aka Ah boon
Luo zhan fu aka Stupid shit

[:

Happy 19th Birthday to Mark! =D

This gal belongs to Mr Loo Wee Boon [:

Temptations

Happy 19th birthday to Si Xuan on 9th Nov! =D

The long day out. Tired but Sweet. Loves Simpan!


I love the LOTUS gals! =D


Had a hard time today =(
Been dizzy whole day due to flu and cough.
I can feel my fever approaching -.-
Went all the way to CDC book my practical test.
Wau $200 plus!
This is so insane.
So I die die have to pass.

Thanks to all peeps whom had wished me Happy Birthday! [:
It's sweet enough le =D
My common wish: Everyone to be healthy and happy [:

Thought a lot today.
I'm not lost, but I know I have some fan nao.
Whatever it is, I hope my gals can get their xin fu soon.
Yes soon.
Whoever dare to bully my gals, I'll definitely smack ya guys!!!
What my gals need is sincerity, NOT SWEET TALKS.

To Stupid shit, for all the hurts you'd gotten in the past,
I'll make up for you.
For the care and love you deserve,
I'll shower you with lotsa them too!
Hahas.
You need not worry bout me,
I'll be healthy and happy and crazy as what you want me to be.
As for to be a gentle lady mah...
I'll try my best yea ^.^
I just wanna say I LOVE YOU, Mr Loo Wee Leong!
You're my ma zi.
LOL.
4 Jie teach me de...
heh heh.

Todays is 10.11.08, my 19th Birthday.
I wanna say I miss my uncle whom had a fatal accident in his workplace on the 11.10.07
Uncle, you're missed badly and hope you're doing well there [:
LOVES*

YOYO!.
Oh man... these days really superb tired.
To the max.
But I definitely enjoyed the weekend [:
Hais... but WHY my birthday on a MONDAY?!
So damn sad and shack -.-
I know my family won't specially buy me a cake,
cos they are not used to celebrating such occasion.
So I super thick-skinned!
I told my mum I'll buy myself a cake tml,
and force them to sing me birthday song!!!
LOL.
Fierce yea.
Heh heh.

Yesterday was a long day for me.
But I love it.
Went CDC to pay for my TP,
BUT the counter closed at 12pm and I was late for 58 mins. -.-
Well done.
And I went to find Stupid shit to pass him his wallet and mp3.
Gong shit la, forget to take his stuffs from me.
LOL.
Opps.
Then he walked me to take bus 27 so I went Tamp mall find pressy for the Nov babies.
But hor, to no avail.
Sad -.-

Later in the evening met up with sick Hao to East Coast Park and met up with our own friends.
It's Mark's birthday BBQ! [:
Happy 19th birthday Mark!
Wish you to be as cheerful as ever! =D
Mich, Ruby, Kw, Marissa, Issac, Matty, Carmen and Alicia were there.
Yea! [:
But hor... we forgot to take group photo again -.-
Haiyoyo.

Then went back to Downtown East chalet and find 1 Jie.
And good thing is that, she's not bored there.
So we went home a while later cos I was super unwell.
But at last we met 2 Jie to have gals talk.
To have serious talk. [:

To my gals:
Different peeps have different opinions.
You need not seek all their advices.
What they give you is only to give you mental preparations.
The thing that matters the most is what you feel like doing.
If you're confident enough, just do it.
I actually took risk on Friday.
Though I'm so damn afraid of being rejected,
but if I know he's the right one,
he's the one whom I really care for,
kao eh just chiong ar!!
LOL.
I hope ya gals can get back ur xin fu too.
And happily ever after [:
Not to forget, I'll always be here for ya gals.
24 hours available =D

To my Stupid shit:
Thanks for everything.
I dunno why I thank you for,
but yah, just accept it!!
LOL.
I'm glad that I met you on 28th August 2008 =D
I went to track the day from my previous posts.
Hahas.
Anyway, let's jia you together bah [:

Hokay, meeting my gals and boys and Stupid shit soon!.
At 5pm, cya guys! [:

Stupid shit ar, thank you [:
08.11.08

Will be superb busy these days =(
Please bare with me man.
Have lotsa pressy not bought and sent out. -.-
Hais.
Do it fast man Manda.
Alright, to my fellow friends,
TAKE GOOD CARE of ya health and stay positive no matter how fuck up life is yea? [:
SMILE always!
It really helps! =D

[JIA YOU] ^.^

Blessedness, from you [:
Thank you super much...

YOYO! [:

New set of Birthday Wish list:

1. BIG Winne The Pooh bear (Oi, you really wanna buy for me ar?! Hahahas.)
2. Bag
3. Wallet
4. Bus guide (I'm not kidding with ya guys, I really need it =X)
5. External hard disk
6. Bring me out for dinner (please... LOL.)

Hokay!
That's all =D
If no pressy nvm, wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY will do le.
LOL.
So sad shit, may not be able to celebrate on that day.. cos it's a weekday. =(
But nvm, it's nearing!!!
And to all November babies, HAPPY BIRTHDAY in advance! [:

People changes.
You too.
Everyone else too.
Him too.

I just hope for now,
we hope we are forever unchanged...

And to my gals,
no matter what happpen in future,
ya gals are forever important to me,
forever precious to me!

Many things happened this year,
and to all obstacles,
we are so not going to surrender to you!.

Anyway, I'll be changing my birthday wishlist again.
Have smth to add.
LOL!.
XP

Recently, my health isn't doing me good.
Or perhaps I'm too tired?
Sometime my heart beats very fast and I can't seem to breathe properly.
Hopefully it ain't dangerous.
Will make time for a body check up soon.
Don't wanna die young when I haven't even finish my attachment.
LOL.

At times, I realized we aren't living for a purpose.
We are like robots, like a non-living thing.
I hope life will be better, time to make a slight change.
Bit by bit, I wanna lead and live up for my own life.
[Jia you]!

Hokay, random post today.

LOVES*

Will post soon! [:
With pix I promise =D

LOVES*
Manda

P.S. Owing Alice & Friendly pressy.
*A reminder to myself.
Hahas

Yoyo!
I wanna copy Hao too.
By having a WHAT I WANT LIST here too.
Hahahs!.

My birthday list:
1. Big Winne The Pooh soft toy
2. Big big bag
3. Hard Disk
4. A small simple dinner at anywhere (cheap cheap can liao)
5. You guys de birthday wish can le.

Every time when it comes to birthday, I can't think of anything.
But yah, above is what I really want.
Alright, end of it.
If have smth new in mind, I'll inform ya guys again.
LOL.
Aligato gozaimashita =D

I'm feeling optimum sadness yesterday.
Felt worse at night.
Cried like nobody's business.
Thanks Gala for all your comforts and encourage [:
Thanks for calling me too.

You're right, I shouldn't think bout it,
should divert my attention to other things else.
And one thing you can't deny is that friendship is our everything.

I'll be creating a post for the inner side of me,
and is most likely to be more truthful.
If you wanna know, msg me then [:
That blog will be bit emo,
if you can't take it better be my UN-DETERRED fans yea!
LOL.
Eh, shameless shit.
LOL.

Anyway, I had fun this long weekend! =D
Very fruitful I thought.
Friday is a long working day for me and Kong Leong.
Cos I caused KL to stay till so late,
I blanja him coffee [:
Then I stayed till 8pm plus after subculturing done.
Met up with the gals for dinner at central.
And 2 Jie, JIA YOU!
We'll all be here for you. [:

Then Saturday met up with Stupid shit (Wee Leong) at CDC for lunch at Bedok Int.
Then got one funny joke happened,
which I told stupid shit only after dinner.
Cos Stupid shit helped me ordered porridge,
then the auntie came to the table, "Zhou? Zhou ah gal?"
"Ah?? Pi dan (Century egg) ar auntie?", I replied.
He response was, "Dui dui, na ge lan jiao de.."
Her nan (boy) been mis-pronounced and turned out to be lan... jiao de.
I just can't help laughing after the auntie left!.
LOL.
After lunch, we went for movie ,
hmm not really nice,
the content too draggy le.
But yah, there's still some part quite funny.
Perhaps ya guys can go for their VCD after that?
LOL.
At 9pm, the hell starts.
Hahahs!
It's running time T.T
Stupid shit can make friends with Peng Gee lo.
Cos even if it's still a long way to go, they will say "REACHING SOON LE LA"
Piang eh, their SOON so LONG can?!
LOL.
But ya la, I have to thanks them,
cos it's really motivating.
With Stupid shit's white lie,
I managed to run more than 2.4 Km.
I didn't realize myself too.
Wau seh, if I really run at the same pace during NAPFA,
I can pass leh T.T
But I too slack le la.
Hahahas.
After running is dinner at Sempan with Hao & Boon.
kao, I can only say their food super expensive. -.-

Yesterday met up with the gals after driving.
HK cafe as usual!
Happy shit! [:
But then... the gals ar so playful, send me that kind of message,
made me damn sad.
But not really their fault too,
I know they meant well.
Anyway gals, don't play such game again ks,
if others in my position were to see that kind of message,
and knowing that it's just a trick,
you'll really make them feel worse.
Like how I felt yesterday.
It takes time to heal,
so don't use such joke anymore.
[:

LOVES*All.

It's really not funny...
T.T
Oh man, stop it Manda.
Shut ur mind up.
Go on be who you are,
and your freaking own rules.
Cheers. [:

Yea finally can load my pictures up le! [:





I'm very moody today. =X
I hate to be like this,
and when it's without a valid reason?
Hais.
But thanks to Da jie's BOOK OF PLEASURE,
I learned this:

Challenge the mirror
Gaze deeply into a mirror and observe how beautiful you really are under your skin

I'm no one special,
but I wanna be one whom will treat everyday as a special day! [:

Cheers!

Yoyo...
Tired...
SHIT...
I think my blog is so damn dead till I see le I also wanna fall asleep here.
LOL.
I'm so sorry peeps,
but cos only my close friends are peeping it,
I know ya guys will forgive me yea.
Hahahas.

My schedule today:
Driving at CDC &
Meeting my caregroups for dinner.
Oh man, miss them all [:
And so hope that the 2 groups can blend together??
Hais.

LOVES*

Yo peeps.
Back [:
Tired shit.
Sorry for repeating this so many times.
LOL.

Had very fruitful days since November when I can start running assays [:
Oh man, really happy shit.
Knowing that my cells are alive,
I'm so damn happy lah.
So yah! I'll treat them as if they're my kids.
LOL.
Crazy shit.

Big thanks to Liyanna, Li Ll, Si Xuan, Edwin, Kai Qin, Kong Leong & Nicole for the helps ya guys offered these days.
Perhaps ya guys are not aware of how much help ya guys had showered me with,
I can tell ya it's alot alot.
Be it mentally and physically,
yup I really appreciated and thanks god I'm here in Curiox!.
Like I said, I love the work there, but hate the long journey from Pasir Ris to Buona Vista.
It's 21 stops.
YES 21!!!.
Oh man.

Anyway, I nearly cried today.
Cos dad can't make it to fetch me to CDC,
and the time is damn tight to even take a quick MRT over.
I was damn it shack and to imagine the repeated trip back and forth.
Perhaps I'd not cried for a long time,
few drops of tears would suffice.
But yah, they just refuse to.
And hang it up in me,
corupting my emotions.
Bo bian, I wrote my feelings out immediately on a rough paper.
Oh man it helps.
Next time I can tolerate such nonsense from myself,
by joting them down anywhere [:
Thanks paper.

Driving was alright today.
Not Steven, it's another instructor.
Thanks goodness it's not the pervet that day.
WHEW~
The instructor was ver fatherly and talkative.
He talks, I tried to listen but after then I dunno where it went.
LOL.
Oh man sorry sir.
Besides test routes, I made few attempts on S-course.
I keep initiating to go for the S-course,
until the instructor laughed and said time's up.
Hahahas.
So yah, I asked quite a lot of questions today,
but a bit regret it cos he can answer me with a composition.
Yea yea... but overall it's alright la.
S-COURSE is SHIOK! [:

Bless:
My Jie meis & friends to be healthy and happy
Meiqi Ah yi to cheer up and be strong again
[:

LOVES*to all

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Papa!
Wish you still as youthful & not that moody anymore!! [:
LOL.
What a birthday wish.
Anyway, LOVE you dad [:

LOVES*to all.

Hello!~
Am choosing the background music for Curiox filming video.
I think I really didn't do much for the video.
Makes me feel guilty towards Edwin.
And Kai Qin is busy for the part on suppliers.
And again, I didn't do much!
Oh man... What should I do to make things more productive for everyone?

Btw, Hao Hao gonna blog out her WHAT I WANT list.
So yah remember to peep her blog! [:
LOL.
*Hao, thx hor, I help you advertise, got advertisement fee mah? XP

Perhaps I'll blog mine too?!
LOL.
Okay la, when I really know what I want.
Right now, I just wanna be happy [:
Hokay, cheers!

YOYO back [:
Oh man, I want my driving lesson to come asap!.
Or I'll sure get mistakes again -.-

Hmm...
I really don't now what else to blog le leh...
LOL!.
STONE sia.
Alright, or I go watch Mobtv now?
Cya!

*Waiting for Rin's arrival tml!! [:

Hello [:
Tired.
LOL.
I guess for most of my posts I have this word in it bah.
Sorry, really tired T.T

Today on the way to CDC,
I teared a bit.
To think that I'm damn tired,
and besides that,
I'd many things not done,
and one last thing,
I'm so such a failure.
I think somehow the tears in my eyes have those reflections,
that there's a NS man whom looked towards my direction.
LOL.
I quickly turned away.
In case he really saw that.
Cos that's freaking ugly.
Hahahas.
But then I held back myself,
telling myself that everything will be fine soon.
I can do it.
Don't worry so much.
No use worrying too... and etc etc.
Manda is a strong girl.
She's dumb, but she's pushing herself now [:
In fact, I didn't bang onto any beings and objects.
Steven is rather satisfied today.
Whew~
No sudden breaking of cars,
not much reminders,
only craps in the car.
I want to maintain this,
so I told Steven not to praise me,
or things will definitely goes wrong for sure.
LOL.
But I do have some other mistakes.
Hopefully I can achieve better outcome on the next lesson.
And this Steven ar...
Super funny.
I really can't help laughing out loud in the car.
I even made an unintentional echo in the car park when my high pitch blasted out.
LOL.
Freak me la,
stupid dumb ass so noisy.
Thanks goodness most of peeps in the car.

I think this is a very boring post.
I try to make more pictures next round yea.
Really ps, am lazy.
Hahahs.

SHOUT OUT loud:
I miss CHUA MEILING NORIN!
LOL.
Miss her souvenirs...
Hahahas.
But her presence most.
LOVES*

Hokay, time to die.
Cya! [:

Yoyo!. [:
Have I been neglecting this blog for quite a while?
Perhaps I may blog once a week le.
It's like work for more than 10 hours outside,
and left the moon to keep me accompanied on my way back home.
Hais...
It's really tiring.
Mentally exhausted too.

But I still have to say,
I love my job alot alot. [:

Thanks Kong Leong for the ride to the MRT station yesterday.
Wahahas.
I was like helping and watching him playing around with his pump for the machine,
and then heh heh...
my devilish suggestion come to a point that perhaps he can fetch me to MRT station.
So I need not take shuttle bus to Buona Vista and then walk to MRT again...
Thanks again!

On the way back home,
wasn't feeling that well.
So yah, hope I can get better soon after.

This morning...
He's all in my mind.
Yup, full image of him and everything.
Silly me...
I still can't forget and put him down...
It's so tuff.
It's like a bad graph,
where the peaks diminish and appear again after several cycles.
Yup, he's like the bad graph.
I know he's very happy and contented with his gal...
but I still miss him very very much.
I dreamed of him again.
He's not that happy.
He don't smile that often anymore.
He just smirk.
Yah, that's him in the dream.
But I trust that he is happy now. [:
Yes you better be yea.

I will be happy too...
Remembering I've such a good friend like you.
And everything.

Wasn't able to join Rin and rest to club.
Saddened.
Cos I don't feel like ps them,
as I thought it's a good gathering.
But due to late work,
I have to go home straight then.
Nvm, there's always next time.

Alright, that's all for me today.
Hahahs.
Am going to send Rin off to HK at Changi Airport later.
Bon voyage my qing ai de [:
LOVES*

Recently, I'm so damn slack that I haven't start out proper for my protocol.
Hence, I wanna do it now!
Slept for hard core 17 hours yesterday.
LOL.
So happy.
So hope everyday is sleeping day.
Hahahs.
That sounds so wrong,
meaning I'm dead already?

I'm so loving my mom.
So love so love so love you Lao Ma! [:
Thanks for all your understandings.
I'm glad that I'm sensible enough to not make you angry,
and you're the best mom I can ever have!

Had a gathering with my 2/8 gals yesterday at Tampines Cafe Cartel.
As usual, we always crap & joke around like nobody's business.
And Wenna ar! So many yellow jokes. LOL.
But it's kinda funny, in fact very la.
Hahahs.

Wenna: 40 women walking in a place, guess a location.
Ans: Pasir Ris. (Ba shi li)

LOL.
I hope ya guys understand the joke.
More to come if I meet them again!.
Hahahas.

Then it's Mj with my friends...
LOL.
Woots.
Addicted, though I lost quite a lot yesterday.
Cos it's like bit no mood to play.
Cos no key to go home! =X
Have to blame myself, cos I left it in Rin's bag. =S
Anyway, I'm waiting for this gal to wake up lo...
LOL.
So pig la, think she's still sleeping.
But yah, she's busy recently, all right, grant her few more hours then.

Hokay, time to work now!
Focus! [:

More picts to come soon...

Hello back [:

Think recently I'm down with certain level of stress.
But not that bad.
Worst of all normally when I feel stress,
I'll cry a little alone.
But now,
no tears,
only worries and blues.

Some questions I thought to myself:

Why is it so easy to get sad than happy?

Why is it so tough to get things right than wrong?

Alright, I will correct myself with this:

If you don't feel any sadness,
you can't feel the real optimum happiness.

If it's so easy to get things right,
then what for people carry out competitions?

Hahas.
Thanks to Rin & Hao that I somehow know what to do next.
Sometimes it comes to a point that I don't feel like speaking and stone at the wall.
It is not scary to be a failure, it's only scary to me when I can't speak out how much a failure I am.
I will feel worse.

This week, I saw someone whom super duper look like him in Biopolis.
I was stunned for a while,
and regained back my conscience.
Nah... how could be here -.-
Yah it's not him lah.
My big big mistake.
Several months have passed,
but he never leaves that room of mine.
Perhaps I'm too selfish cos I locked that door of the room?
Time to get a key Manda.
A key that will fade the thoughts and in exchange with a good friend.

But yah...
I must must work hard,
must must drive hard,
must must push myself further.
Not staying here stoning.

[Jia you]!
And welcome WL back to Singapore the day before.
LOL.

Cheers.

Hahahas.
Trying to find time slack.
Or else won't have the chance to later after this.

Alright, had girls talk yesterday.
I hope all my gals are well and happy [:
many LOVES*

Will be busy lately.
So yup update soon! [:

If you sleep on your side with your knees very slightly bent, it shows that you are a sincere and loving person. You are sensitive, polite and gentle. You would never hurt anyone intentionally - you're too nice a person. You have a good heart, and everyone is fond of you. You get along with most people, as you see the good in them and ignore the bad. This is a rare quality. However, at times you tend to be too harsh and critical of yourself. If you make a mistake, you will brood about it for hours - or even days.

*Thx dearie Mich for the mail =D

I think this is freaking true.
Hahahs.
If you wanna know what your sleeping position can tell bout your personality,
you can tag me and I'll give you the answer.
So sorry, wanna send ya guys the link but hor,
that's my mail!.
You need my password to get in too. -.-
LOL.

Alright, these are the options,
1. Sleep on your tummy the entire night
2. In a fetal position
3. On your side, with your knees slightly bent
4. On your back with your legs crossed
5. On your side, with your knees curled
6. On your side, with one knee bent
7. On your back, with your arms crossed under your head
8. On your back with your arms and legs straight

Tag me your no [:

Anyway, I'm damn sad yesterday =(
My driving was real bad yesterday.
Bad to the max.
Did so many mistakes, till I'm even fed up myself.
Steven said " You pass by here so many times le you still can't remember your way..."
I was not sad bout what he said,
but I damn hate myself for having such poor memory.
And really weak sense of direction.
From the start I told myself I can do it de,
I told myself not to be afraid,
I told myself it's not a trend that women can't drive,
I told myself I wanna drive to fetch myself and my gals & boys out...
But I ended up disappointing myself.
I wanna say that no matter what,
I haven't give up,
and I will not.
I will do better the next time.
I don't wanna give any excuses for my mistakes,
I just wanna find the solutions to them.
[Jia you] & [Cheer up] Manda!.
Please!~

And thx WL for the cheers.
Hahas.

Will be performing assay later.
[Work hard] Manda!.
Will treat myself milk tea ltr [:

*To my gals,
I so miss the past too.
No worries, some quarrels and many laughs.
LOVES* [:
Miss my gals & boys lots lots.

Am thinking some stuffs...
Happy stuffs...
Sad stuffs...
No matter what it is,
I'd grown up alot and I'm sure I'm able to manage these emotions.
Anyway, this is a damn random post,
so yah bare with me.
I wanna talk to myself badly.
LOL.

Yea yea yea!!
Kanna Steven as the instructor on Monday.
At first, I'd always tot that Steven is a super duper gentle and introvert person,
ended up he crapped with me during lesson.
LOL.
Now then I know he's single, age won't be revealed,
but confirm he's 30 years old and below.
Hahahs.
No worry, any gals interested?

And yesterday is a happy day with my gals.
Hahahs.
LOVES*

Hao & Boon, I hope ta see ya guys together until ya guys step the red carpet!
I really hope that la. So must jia you okay! [:

下雨天，决定不哭了。。。

Finally PASS my FTT!.
I'm waiting for that "green signal" in that split second!
Thx guys for ya congrats! =D
*Rin, Hao, Alvin & SiXuan
Hahahas.

To all couples:

Ya guys are born to be 2 different unique species.
Both of ya carry different characters, personalities, philosophies and etc etc.
But faith bring ya guys together,
as a team,
as a partner,
as a lover.
It is as simple as that.
You follow the rules,
you pass the test,
you earn your credits,
you get your future.
However, it takes 2 hands to clap.
You need not talk,
you listen,
you lend a hand to,
you nod your head,
you give your support,
all these actions would definitely suffice.
Say "I love You" once a time, not in a blue moon.
But don't ever say that same phrase when you're on a phone,
at the same time on a bed with another person.
It kills.
Not you, but the faith.
Whatever it happens,
be optimistic bout the relationship.
Give it a good try,
if not leave it with good endings.
Most importantly,
both parties should be comfortable with that.
Guys, don't cheat ya gals.
Gals, don't play ya guys.
Be truthful, that's all we ask.
But if you really think you cannot make it,
then cut the game,
go play your monopoly.
Alright, smile couples!.

To singles:

I'd made a conclusion with myself this afternoon.
I told myself I will be happy alone.
But not forever.
Hence, I promise myself to give my best shot when time is to come.
Put away your past,
keep & embrace the good memories,
be happy with it.
It's okay for those whom just left the game I'd said earlier,
cos you're leaving them for a better and nicer one.
I can't define BETTER & NICER to you.
The better and nicer ones will show you with actions themselves.
It's not too late for one to get married,
it's only superb late for one to get cheated after marriage.
Promise yourself that you treat yourself well.
When time comes, come on, grab it!. [:

Alright, that's all for today.
Will start to get busy these days.
Love it [:

It's so sick these days.
Not enough sleep and rest -.-
I don't have time for myself le.
But it's good too [:
I manage to let the thought of him go away.

But I'm happy [:
Cos I managed to meet my Jie meis for mj these days.
Happy shit.
Hahas.
Am glad working in Curiox now [:
Yes I really do.
Everyone is nice and friendly.

Then recently, I went to see doctor for my skin.
It's getting bad, but I really don't bother liao.
It's tiring to keep track of my diet and etc etc.
I think I'll simply use what the doctor prescribed and yea follow the routine bah.
Just don't wanna think so much.
I don't want my look to obstruct my way.
Let me be happy again bah.

Anyway, wad surprised what mum said yesterday,
and I thought it was funny.
She said " Iyo, see la.. the doctor so young! 29 years old, now have his clinic, filial to his parents and etc etc.. What do you think of the doctor? You should marry to such guy mah..."
Then I was like "??!!!! Ma! He's 29 leh!. You don't mind me marrying to a person so much older than ma?!"
LOL.
Then I was like telling her I wanna intro to my friend (I didn't mention it's da jie, LOL),
then she say "Stupid de leh u, keep it for yourself! "
Hahahs.
Funny shit.
Now I'm sure that my mum won't deny my marriage with a older man le.
LOL.
I'm glad she's open-minded.

Okay, end of story.

Oh yah... sad shit that I can't meet Friendly and rest today.
She's going to Thailand for quite a long attachment over there.
I pray for her to be safe and enjoy herself there [:
And yes, I'll be sending some stuffs to her next month.
Heh heh... Don't tell you guys.

Anyway, be happy peeps.
It's hard to be happy for me,
so I'm trying hard.
Jia you [:

Yoyo!.
Back to blog.
But no pictures this time.
Can't possibly play with photoscap now in the lab.
LOL.
Sad & happy & tired I'm feeling now.
Hope everything will be fine today! [:

Have driving ltr.
Hope won't be that bad & tired again -.-

Alright, byebye.
Tc peeps! [:

Worked rather late today.
Am tired.
Am a bit depressed.
Depressed over certain issues.
But yah...

I'd once respected this guy.
I see how ambitious he is.
I see how caring he is to his gf.
I see how he showers that kind of brotherly love to rest of us.
I see how he played with us in a superb childish way.
I see how good a person he was at that time.
I rmb what he said to me " Manda... you should have confidence... Don't keep thinking that you're ugly or what so ever..."
I recall how he kept his promise tightly.
I entrusted him with my precious friend.
Years later,
he misused it.
I'm freaking angry with him.
I can't understand why.
I'm reluctant to be rational.
I cursed him.
But until the end the day,
I missed how a good person he is...
I told myself that this guy may change for better in few years time,
and he may earn back what he wants.
But many people object bout this.
I'm wondering,
you sure you're happy with what you're having now?
To like... flirt around? -.-

It's Sunday!.
Last minute notice, went to a GuZheng performance with Rin & her friends [:
Yeah, thx Jie, I enjoyed the soloist part!.
LOL.
Iya...
Think I'm rather bad la...
Cos I feel the Orchestra song damn boring...
But the soloist part managed to grab my intention.

Pictures will be up when I'm not lazy...
LOL.

Alright,
meeting the gals again ltr.
Damn miss them to the max!.
It's a week, but it feels like more than that!.
LOL
Yeah happy [:

HELLO!
back to blog.
Pictures time [:

Saturday:

Went to terminal 3 to send WL off to Thailand for his NS training.
Makan there with the gals and guys. [:

Sunday:
Before going to Lotus Chalet... Found this super duper big specs in Tamp!
During the chalet... Played with the Kids!. I forgot some names.. LOL. Didn't manage to take photos of Ali Baba & Keith. =(

Monday & Thursday:
Makan at some small cafes in Biopolis.
I'm working at Curiox Biosystem in the NANOS building.
Had fun though [:
My colleagues over there: Dr. Kim, Dr. Leck, Li Ll, Kai Qin, Edwin, Kong Leong, Liyanna & Si Xuan.

Friday:

It's a makan day with Hao.
Went over to Orchard to have dessert,
then ltr proceed on to WS HK Cafe makan dinner.
Rin & Wils joined us to crap after then.
Thx Wils for the treat though!.
The bruise on his eyes is damn serious la,
kao damn big -.-
But very funny too.
LOL.
*Thx Big korkor for everything! [: Loves! Though you're still a big fat pig!

Saturday:

Thx Uncle & Ah kim for the donuts!! WOots!~
From Donut Empire.
They're tempting =X

Alright, task of the day:
Update MP & student log books.
Do some house works.
Rest!

Byebye!~

JACK LIM SUCKS TO THE CORE!
BITCH IS FOREVER A BITCH!.
FEEL LIKE SMACKING YOU BUT I TOT IT MAY DIRTY MY HANDS SO FORGET IT.
FUCK OFF FROM DA JIE'S LIFE!

Yeah 1 week completed in Curiox.
In fact, I'm happy to be in here [:
It's not that complicated, and it's rather easy to access my projects and stuffs.
Plus I'm super duper interested in participating the sales part.
XP

Anyway, met Hao to Orchard and buy her stuffs.
Then to WS HK Cafe to have dinner.
Da Jie & orh ba kak Wils came to join us talk crap.

(To Rin & Hao) Most importantly, I wanna add that:
It's hard for me to fall in love in anyone again,
it's almost zero.
Seriously I don't have that special feel for the guy.
Only that we get along as good friends.
I only wanna request not to match make us cos it reminds me of E.
And sad to say the wound haven't heel yet.
I just found out this wound last week on that particular day,
that it's rather deep.
No point pushing when it won't happen ultimately.
Love ya gals for being so concern bout me,
bout my everything.
But having ya gals & rest of Jie Meis is really really more than enough.
I'm freaking content bout it.
LOL.
Don't worry, I won't die w/o guys.
I'll only die w/o milk teas.
Guys to me...
is nth now.
I can feel absolute nth.
[:

Alright, more to blog bout last week tml! [:
Nites.

This is freaking tiring!.
But I'm glad that I'd did subculturing today [:
Yeah~
But with 'eye power' on me, I'm damn stressed la -.-
I will be better next time!.
Hahahas.

I realized it's so hard to forget a person.
Yet till now,
it's been months I still can't forget.
I'd said, it's only part of my memory,
it's not mine ultimately.

Oh no.
I feel a pang guilt now.
That I'm such a spendthrift,
till my mum have to suffer alone financially.
Sorry mama, you earned that pathetic amount to raise us up.
To shower us with gifts that are unnecessary.
To give us what you think you should.
In fact, I don't feel I'm mistreated if you don't do all these things at all.
I just feel we stressed you a lot be it mentally and financially.
You must have thought that you have that responsibility.
And hence you often worry bout this issue.
I'd said, I won't demand any holiday trips from mama,
I'll work and earn for it [:
I will work even harder, just to bring you along for holiday! [:
I wanna thanks you for tolerating with us for so many years,
and that you merely complaint.
I thanks god so much, cos I have the best mum I ever need in this world [:

From then on, I'm planning to cut down my expenditure,
and have packed foods for work.
In fact, that's not hard,
cos there's oven and drinks available in ETC [:
Not that bad.
Can also slim down too.
Hahas.
Crazy ass.

Alright, basically it's the same thing today.
Almost slept -.-
Hais, hate myself like this.
Cos it shows how useless I am!.
I hope there will be lab work tml.
Please, hard core lab works!!.

One funny thing today,
that I met Estee twice today in the MRT!
Damn funny, we were shock bout it too.
Saw dearie Mich, Liang Hui, Wei Liang & Nicholas too.
Again, we gossip.
Think I'm a bit over,
but kao!.
Who back stabbed me in the first place?!
I won't forget de lo.
Watch out!.
I'll stay there and watch how you guys get your retribution.
As what Hy said, bad people gets their retribution.
Anyway, they are just ruining their own reputation

Oh yah, hope my friends I saw in MRT today take good care of their health.
As I can see how shack they were today.
Esp Estee with that pale face!.
LOL.
Tc ar gal!
As well as dearie Mich, Love you lots!*

Then this morning met up with 1 Jie,
god I don't like to meet peeps at MRT station.
Cos the front and back cabin makes me blur.
I still can't figure it out.
Don't scold me 1 Jie -.-
LOL!.
Anyway, I know you won't XP

I feel a lot stuffs this morning.
I'm wondering lotsa stuffs.
Things I'd done and etc etc.
And I'm glad everything is sort of over now.
And my mode should be high,
for lab works & more "communications" in my new work place.

[Jia you] as what xiao wei also said.
Hahahs.
Can't imagine a big guy using such format to say [Jia you] with brackets!.
LOL.
Anyway, may god bless him and the rest to be fun in Thailand.
Yea everything will be good [:

Cya peeps!.
more to update with pictures today [:

Oh ya, I saw Thilini, Caroline, Peck Gee & Ke Wen in Biopolis too.
LOL.
Lame shit =X

It's not NAPFA,
it's attachment that makes my body aches like shit now. -.-
I didn't do much.
Think I'd sat too much.
LOL.
Did much more fruitful stuffs today.
Like biosafety trainings carried out by Mr Jin Teck.
Then learned subculturing from Liyana.
And lastly told to do 'abusive' work on our DropArray Acelerator LT 100 to test for viability.
By both Dr. Kim & Kong Leong.
LOL.
That's funny, but it's tiring.
Think only Si Xuan will understand how tiring it is.
Hahahs.
And came to know this freshie whom started attachment on the same day as I am.
She's Candice, from NYP.
Had a good talk.
And so envy her that she'll be staying ETC for just 3 months!.
That's so damn cool la! =X
I think due to the extension of our attachment,
we were much more slack in Curiox.
But more work will be done starting tml, I guess.
Please let me perform subculturing tml Dr. Leck...
Or I'll rot soon. =X
LOL.
Alright, I'm starting to like the department I'm in [:
No regret!.

Meeting 1 Jie tml morning for work [:
Yeah!.
Have someone to crap with me le! =P

LOVES*

Omg...
There's quite a few literature researches need to be done by tonight.
Didn't realize it's alot!.
Anyway, first day of attachment at Curiox Biosystem was rather fun [:
I don't wanna rate the people there.
But I can say they're generally fun-loving.
But in a conservative way.
LOL.
New lab-pal I met today, Si Xuan [:
Will update asap.
With pictures I promise.
Meanwhile really need to finish what I'm required today.
All I'll be hanging around like mad these following weeks.
[Jia you] guys!.

Will update tml!. [:
Make a wish!......
Was. stun.ned when I hear your name in the phone.
Was. hesitating whether to meet ya guys.
Was. disappointed with myself somehow.
Am .not willing to bring the cheesecakes home.
Am .disheartened when I see the ring you wore.
I m .ake myself suffer mentally.
I us .e a laugh to cover all.
I a .m not prepared to face you further.
Cos .you make my heart sink...
ver .y deeply...
It's .not your fault anyway,
no o.ne's fault,
it's .my fault for not being ready.
I ha.ven't forget you.
Ple .ase let me say goodbye to you,
to t .he memories.
Be fine tml & there after! [:

Halo picture is uploaded! [:

The gang at kuishin-bo (Suntecc Tower 1): dearie Michelle, Carmen, Marissa, Issac, Mark, WeiHong, WeiQiang, KeWee & Kok Tong

The gals at HK Cafe (WS mall) as usual [: LOVES*

Hahas.
Just saw 7 Meis's bloggy.
Hokay, I think I'm slow to realize the 'hidden' msg behind that.
For sake that there's a huge blank between the posts.
LOL!.

Anyway, yea you're right,
no use cursing that kind of person.
We can't call him names too,
cos we've to respect his mother,
as we know she's a nice soul too [:
Just this idiot whom know nuts bout love.
And messing his life like this.
But that's alright too,
Rin will be free,
free from burden in the future [:
1 Jie, have to think for yourself in the long run yea [:
He can never be a good husband,
for holy sake that he can't even perform the role of a good bf.
As we said, to forgive & forget is your choice,
you'll name it at the end of day.
We'll respect your decision no matter what [:

Hokay, it seems that I'm blogging everyday,
every morning,
every night time.
Too free.
LOL.
Btw, I'm posted to Curiox Biosystem,
one of the department in Biopolis at Buona Vista.
I'm still unsure of the pay.
Hope it's good... -.-
Gonna get a bus cum train concession soon.
kao.
97 bucks!.
That's Singapore.
I wonder if it's unlucky or what,
but I'm the only one from Biotech to get into that department.
Heard it's a small department.
And I thought it's good,
cos easier to assess and stuffs.
Nvm, let nature takes its course bah.
Perhaps it's not as bad as I'd thought.
[Jia you Manda]!
LOL.

Btw, will post up the pictures ltr.
Sorry sorry.
Sending in process.
LOL.
[:

I have sort of mixed feelings in me now.
Wonder what my emotions should be exactly like or supposed to be.
Anyway, I had dinner with my school mates at Suntec.
Will post up the pictures tml [:
Shall play with photoediting again.
LOL.

Then it's meeting with my Jie meis again [:
Love chit chatting.
Love real talks.

That's us, we're simple souls [:

Anyway, was rather surprised that I have this friend whom actually back stabbed me in the past.
Without myself knowing it!.
Hahas.
At first I was stunned,
then sad,
then nearly flare up but tried my best not to go further into vulgarities.
In fact, I have to say, she didn't manage to respect herself.
She speaks ill of me,
she gives others the image that she's the devil,
and hence ruining her own reputation.
Moreover, the system of forgive & forget is rather hard to establish right now.
I would likely to forgive as ass like you,
and play around with you.
Need not take me for granted,
once I know you do,
that's it.
I'm not interested in whatever you speak of me,
cos that's definitely not me.
I trust myself, my whole freaking soul.
And God is rather disappointed with you,
for holy sake that you join their service and not learning your mistakes.
This is a shame.
Big shame on you.

The biggest mistake one can ever do is by repeating the same stupid mistake.
I think I'm one of those,
whom kept giving peeps my trust and ended up with wounds.
I cover their dirts for them,
and making a fool out of myself.
I feel happy that I'm able to help others,
but in their eyes,
I'm just a transport system.
I won't be angry anymore,
cos I can't change anything to it.
I am who I am,
if I change,
I won't be Manda le.
I'm not innocent ks,
I'm only slow and not that efficient.

Sians.
Going back school ltr to know where we'll be posted to for attachment this coming Monday.
Definitely it'll be Monday blue -.-

This is so big shit...
Going Suntec for class gathering,
but I still haven't choose what to wear T.T
"Have to wear nice hor" Carmen reminded me this early morning.
LOL.
Okay, I will [:
But... jia lut... what to wear?

Feel like wearing high heels...
But I'm having aches at the lower limb -.-
Damn thing.

Lalalalalala~
I'm looking forward to meet my gals!.
Please, time bind us all together again.
I enjoy their companies [:

Alright.
Will be back with pictures!.
Hahahs.
Photoediting time!
Woots!.

Hey I'm back [:
Aches all over my body,
especially those muscles at my lower limb -.-
Sure it's to do with NAPFA.
Anyway, did I mention that I failed my NAPFA?
LOL.
Yah yes I did.
Back in secondary school, I can get a bronze so easily for the past 4 years back then.
But now, it's becoming a miracle if I can ever pass it all.
Hahas.
It's bit disappointing despite having some friends to cheer for me way before my NAPFA.
I feel more sorry to them.
Thx lots peeps [:

Anyway, yah again it's driving today.
In fact, there's nth to be happy or proud of when one is able to take driving.
Cos it's just a mean of purpose rather than hobby.
It's not smth I really like, but smth I thought is important in the future & which may mark as a score for independence.
Nah, got 'yellings' again, that goes...
"You should brake when the Car in front of you come to a halt!. Taxi normally stops here... "
Anything you can think of, yes it's all the mistakes I'd done today again.
I think I inherited my dad's CHIONG gene,
whom loves to speed around with that small little Toyota,
change lane as and when he likes,
without the need to follow the 'rules'.
That's for expert I know, it's definitely not me.
But I just have the temptation to do that.
I see no reason braking and stopping for a Taxi few meters away from me,
when I can change lane as long there's no car beside me.
Isn't this the 'Seniors' are doing them now?
LOL.
Okay, sorry I apologize if my theory is wrong.

It's another reading day for me too.
Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom.
That's another book of this author after reading The Five People You Meet In Heaven.
Woots.
Nice one I can say [:
He just managed to keep my eyes on his book.

Then I realize that nowsaday, many ridiculous people I found,
are really ridiculous -.-
Hahas.
Take for example at the MRT platform,
they have this yellow line on the floor that specifically guide you where to stand,
and where to avoid.
Or if the person is not deaf, he or she may hear the announcement made at the station.
Loud & clear, to most people [:
However, they tend to have this kind of feeling that a bomb is installed right behind them,
and they have to rush into the train instantly.
And for those poor things (like me) have to make some 'dance steps' by making space for these people to get in, and quickly get our way out of the train, for fear that the door is a few centimeters away from us.
YES, these inconsiderate souls brought my annoyance & vulgarities.
I'm sure some of ya understand what I mean, don't you.

Nvm, I'm always calm.
I trust my soul.
Hahas.

"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you're bound to do smth else. Smth hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take things for granted. " - By Morrie

Some people out there may self pity themselves, like me sometimes I do.
You can.
But you do it a little in the morning, a few tears. alright that's all. [:

I am who you think I am.
The emo side of one is not born to be like this,
it's the cheerful side we're born to be.

Alright, end of my lesson today.
Hahas.
Cheers!

Loves*
my family, my 7 Jie Meis, my friends & any other strangers I'd met earlier recently.

Yoyo!.
Went to Hao's house yesterday for 2 Jie's project [:
I'm Potianak.
LOL.
Anyway, gg CDC now, may see my bro [:
He's before me.
Will be back [:

I promise I won't fall in love with anyone.
Cos I don't deserve it,
& wo pei bu shan...

Back [:

Oh yah, recently I'd just completed a nice storybook.
The Five People You Meet In Heaven.
And I learned from the book that...

"Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks a person whom harmed us. Bur hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves."

Come to think of it...
Yup that's true.
Don't you feel more annoyed when we come to hate somebody?
Hence, best to let it go & forget them all as if u're a Dorry fish!.
LOL.

Many things happen for a reason.
But w/o ourselves knowing it.
Leave it to faith & things will definitely fall in place.
This is what life is about.
Bout human nature, bout any other things before or after us...

came to realize we can only be good friends.
It's destined. So be it.
No use putting emotions into it.
Lost love is still love.
It only takes a different form.
Memory will become your partner, nutured, held, & danced with [:

These people are part of my life, my story [:
They are more others of course, but I can't find the photos!.
LOL.

0800: Drag myself to wash up
0930: Get myself out of the house, way to CDC.
1020: Rain getting heavier... HG. No umbrella. My bag turns into my only shelter.
1022: Instructor holding an umbrella, calling me to run to him. (Duh -.- I didn't expect much, but why not he bring that over as it's bit tuff for me to move around... Nvm then. )

In the car, I tried my best to make minimal mistake.
Yea man, I did it [:
Did blindspot today.
I really did it, for the sake of doing it.
I know Sylvester will nag if I don't -.-
Whew!~

1200: Finally, ended my class & went to pee.
1207: Out of school & off to Kranji.

Read The Five People You Meet In Heaven during the long journey.

1330: Interview at Tuff club.

God, there were 100 over candidates.
Can you believe that?
Didn't expect though.
During the interview, I came to know these 2 ladies (both are mothers).
They spoke to me, yes they did.
And that was one the conversation that goes like this...
Lady: Ah gal ar you see this news.
Poor thing hor.
See the boy only 16 leh...
Me: (I scan for pictures) Oh ya lo ya lo... so young...
Trying to get back to read my storybook asap, as the climax is at its peak alr.
Lady: Iyo ya lo... Come come you can take a good look at that.
(She placed the article right in front of my book)
Me: Oh oh... kks thx.
While reading the article, I gave this look --> -.-''
Forget it I thought.
I make a serious attempt to read through the article,
and trying not to be offensive,
I made a comment that the boy was such a poor thing, and that her family would have been heartbroken etc etc.
Was glad that the lady acknowledge me with a short nod & I smiled to myself,
YES READING TIME.
Few seconds I could even start counting,
Lady: Hey gal ar gal ar, you see this, nows a day the price are like shooting up...
Me: (Smile & nod)
In fact, I'm crying inside me. T.T
Left 2 more pages to complete the book -.-

1530: Managed to leave the place & down to TP for some reason.

I'm lazy to explain.
Perhaps you can ask me personally [:

1700: My body almost shivered as I realized I didn't had my lunch yet.

Well, should be ready for dinner then -.-
Went over to Hao's house, 2 Jie joined us too.
At last, home sweet home [:

I wanted to share bout the storybook I mentioned earlier.
But due to my laziness,
I shall do it tml [:

Cya!.