I should not have exist

I'm such a lazy gal , yet I'm not good in studies, am I proving my own inability or unwillingness?.. Why am I not working hard now?... Why why why??!!!... Haiya.. I don't wanna blog anymore people X( I've no mood at all...

My dreams are so far away from me.... I hate myself alot alot alot and alot...

Cries,
Manda