Time flies. Lotsa things may have happened...but they dont matter to me anymore...

Things around you changed, the fact is "It'll happen one day".

But I kept denying it for several times,

now that I accept it with my very limited understanding.

How can I accept a two timer person..be it a guy or a gal

teach me how.

How can I accept this arrogant behavior...be it a close fren or not

teach me how.

Hais. Too bad Biotech dont have such module, hence it may need my hard work to check this out =)

For wadeva happens, remember Manda, it can never affect friendship des ka =)

Signing off,
A failure

The 6-daes journey

I really can’t believe that so many things happened to myself last 6 exact daes =) It’s a fantasy, not nightmare at all. This is cos I learnt a lot from them and notice e trend of a relative-ship. What one gains can never be from their close ones, instead they’re people whom you dun really know and willing to give you their moral supports. Venture Era, a place where I like the culture but uncomfortable with e politics. I know few of these somehow, but not allowed to disclose them. My upline or direct BM is barely 3 yrs older than me, yet I'm told to address him as Mr. XXX.. I felt cool in the first place, wonder when will I have chance to be addressed lyk this. However, no worry, cos I've a fairly good BM to guide me along...I know what he's motive is, I wont blame him anywhere =) But I'm giving up right now, hence he might hate me to e core X( I really apologise, as I mentioned, I don't have e capital to start my network. And seriously, I've a very weak network. That is when I realise my aunt is such a disappointment. I must trust my parents cos they'd went through that and I'd seen my dad's journey in the past. I thought it was because he didnt work hard enough or rather the idea n work he'd done was rather inefficent. But getting to know the market now, sales line is hard to achieve. I simply can't get myself to vow for this job, cos I really had no interest at all!... What I wanna be is Hotel Manager, not sales executive or manager... I wanna use my sincerity to approach my customer, not a product to approach them instead.

Through this very short journey, I realised that Manda had grown up XP I may not be experienced but still able to rectify the wrongs I found in e company. I know all companies r somehow corrupted, I dont blame or even feel surprised. Cos I understand everyone is trying their very best to fight for their own position. It's like past hunters hunting and killing animals for food to survive. But now, since human r able to get their foods easily, they will increase their needs. U know, it's normal. Who is not like this?...I may be one very dae =) But Hotel is somewhere I dun really need ta fight for anything. Cos I only wanna my prospect to get e best service they deserve when spending time n money in the hotel, and cos I'm willing to work, I'm really comfortable in earning what I get in the end =) I know I'll fight till e very end =) But when someone is up to no good, earning a large some of money using despicable tricks , is it worth living then when you're not happy at all?... "Monkey sees, monkey do" as what my direct BM had told me, so are the downlines all monkey?.. Though they may be putting a false front before us??..I wonder when I'd turned negative but is it true??.... It's really a qn... But I really wanna thanks them alot...Cos certainly they'd wasted quite a lot of time on me.. I'm really sorry that I wanna give up. Cos I dun want this type of life. Though I love wearing a black neat blazer and earning 5 figures sum of money every month =) Omg...I hope this is my life... A hotel manager earning 5000 bucks every month without fail, getting to drive a nice car and roam around with friends n family, having big feast occasionally, living in a big big house, able to go overseas during the holidaes and getting married to a sweet nice loyal husband at e age of 21 X).. U know...u know...all these seems fiction but I simply want it to turn them into reality cos I wanna the best of my life!... Not through sales line but service line =) Argh!!!... How am I going to reply Mr..... hais... I really feel so sorry for him... He'd ta go through so much rubbish for me... I seemed ta be a lousy follower.

Alright, somehow I've updated what I'd gone through so far..and frankly, I really dont regret doing all these stuffs. And the commission I'd earned, I decide to return to the real owner.. It's barely 4 bucks I noe XP I dont wanna to earn smth tt dont belong to me X)

I know...when the time comes...My real desired ambition will come along...my prince will appear before me... I will work hard as I promised cos I want my family to have e best out of the best =)

Love to my QJM, thx to sotong Jie, Eric and uncle Edwin having to spare time to give me their precious advice... If not for ya guys, I might have dropped dead crying like hell. For wadeva happens, I realised that there's only ur family and frens for u to lend their shoulders and a blessed helping hands. Instead, ur relatives will be there to add salt to ur wound, creating a big world of craps and negatives in ur life. No, never will Manda die so easily. She'll certainly buck up and prove them that she's much more worth living in this small small world than them. At least she's willing to absorb the power of real values =)

And what's more, gambatte kudasai!...

Signing off,
Neva gif up de Manda =)

Triggering one's positivity =)

I'm really a no body...

I'm really blur when I meet problem...
I really wonder whether I'll succeed...
I really wonder will I lose anything...
but snapping back to this very moment...
I know I'm somebody working & helping out my BM to get his BM 2 star and a ME for herself...
I can train myself to be acute...
I know if I try my very best, I'll succeed very one dae...
I know I lose nth cos I'm gaining knowledge every seconds and extending my horizon...
Most imptly, I know what I want exactly.
Fantasy starts only when u dare to dream!...
No harm dreaming if u're willing to work along...!
Gambatte kudasai!..

Aaaaaa!.... I finally see my TaI ZI tOdae!...WohOOooooo!... I'm exhilerated! Pls, cheer for me yea!...lol. Sry, I've really gone crazy this morning after my test XP HPI test was quite easy to handle with, but not for me, cos I didn't study well X( Nvm, at least I'd tried my best for e two whole weeks!...And cos of this term test, I missed another round of MOS with hao meis and da jie X(

Oh yah, before I extend my topic further, I wanna tok bout TaI ZI first!.. Omg..! I can't believe my eyes!. My friends and I were actually making our way back to ITAS from BIz school, when I see this guy in black (Engine school shirt) so familiar.. I was wondering..." I think I see him before... And he seems to be someone I'm.... I've a motive to meet him... Hmm...the guy! the guy in e bus!.." Hahahs..I know I'm superbly slow, but thanks goodness I got to stare at him for a while. Heehee.. He'd definitely brightened up my day =) And I think my sore throat had recovered after tt!..lol. No lahs...so exaggerating of me..Still bit rough in the throat.

However... Even I've the chance to know him one very fortunate dae...do u think this good-looking guy will like a big-sized ugly gal... I feel myself so awkward.. I'm fat and common, someone whom guys wont even lay their eyes on. Damn me...why must I be so so so.... Fat!... Flabby arms and muscular legs...!... Oh nonono...what a nightmare for me..Hence, it's time to slim down again Manda!!... For ur happiness, u must ks?!..Hohoho...

Everything is flowing smoothly...just one thing..when my ang ang coming??...Cos I've an I-guide camp approaching!!...Sharks.

Signing off,
the Insane =X

Congenial labour is the essence of happiness

Spending a little bit of my free time, trying to allocate where I actually stand... Sitting in front of the screen, having abit fear that I may have wasted alot of my time which could be done on revision for my term tests next week. However, I told myself it's just...just... WORTH IT!!...

Lol. Sounds abit serious yea?!...Hahahs. Of cos not!... I noe I may be slacking abit..but I know what I ought ta do =) At least I'm doing something, I'm practising my language too XD

Yea...studying for Bmic test which is to be held next mondae... Covering topic 1 Microorganism. I think it's bit simple...common sense stuffs...but tt doesnt mean I can pass well!!...I must must digest them up into simpler forms and able to explain them in manda's words =) Hohoho..It can be done and I must try my best!....WohoooOOOOooo!....Say say say!~ lol. Lame Eric's fault... bringing such culture in me...Nvm, I've a new one..PEACE! (Imagine the image of my TWIST hand-pen--- a precious gift from Da Jie=) Love her lots!)

Hais...Will be missing hao meis for three weeks... no christmas celebration with this 'extreme' gal...and wonder if Da Jie and the rest would have free times for me... Hmm!...but nvm, I'll pester them then!.... Hohhoho!... Oh yea, I still have my lotus family =D Btw, how bout with my classmates n...oh!!....deir, wenna, Yp, Jy, lao po, gena n stacey??!!....Argh!...miss them so much!...Wanna pass them x'mas cards too!

Yawns....Zzzzz...nono!...stay awake Manda!...ya gotta fight till the end!!..... Study hard and ya can get juicy fruits!....Gambatte!... (Am I correct Mr Vampire if ya peeping my blog?!..lol..Thanks u tOo!) Manda ya must try try try try!!....

Oh yah!...I'm so excited with my new song!!.... Tittled: Bu Yao You Liang Ge Da. For more info., pls contact Manda Lim!.... at www.the-undeterred.blogspot.com Hahahs. Do post me ur comment only if I'm able to record my voice and upload here XP...Heehee

Wadeva, God says he'll bless ya all....Gambatte!...

Jia you Jia you Jia you......

Signing off,
Solid =)

Just this few mins, and I'm dieing to speak out my mind.

Why are ya guys so cruel??.... How can u say " I love you" to two gals and be a two timer??...

Before I cont'd, it's not referring to my situation.

I'm just so angry!... If u dunno how to treasure ur gal, dont spoil her reputation then!... U're definitely not worth it for her cos she deserves the best one!...

I dun understand...wad's all ya intentions for..but it's really terrible...and rather obsene to have such behaviour.

If u eva make my gal cry again, I'll make sure u suffer in ur relationship for e rest of ur life.

Hell yes!

For the moment, I'd the rough idea of what the topic and how the questions gonna be questioned in the quiz tml. I'm tired..really..Physically and mentally. This week is a sleepless night for me...I simply feel tensed up...

I'm so glad for meis that the fish had asked her for a patch up, hopefully it's a smooth patch and journey for them after on =) Hahas...Think manda gonna be alone again XP I wonder if I'm too ugly or wad...hais...still can't find my prince...The one I lyk will neva be there for me...I would love to be single, but would also love to be loved. lol. No any other male creatures knows how to love me, hence forget it. I've already tasted enough of rotten apples. Not this time again X(

As for now, I'll still wait for my tai zi...would really love to meet him one day... hais...when??...

Alright...quiz and lectures and discussion after school tml.. that will be my schedule for todae I mean...No outings...no cocktail...no bladding...just a good good rest for me...

God, pls bless me and e rest of ppl taking tml maths quiz with luck and concentration.

Lotsa love n hates,
Panda