Happenings
April is quite a happening month to me. Many unusual, depressing and joyous things took place. lolx. I realised that it'd been a short month, and it's yet over! hahax! I came to learn lots of thing, whether it regards to a boy-girl relationship, experiences I'd in lotus grill and in the new school I'm currently in, TP. I've started to grow up and matured a lot more. Changes in me now make me feel awkward cos I'm not used to what I'm now! Maybe my parents and bros would assume that I've turned bad, but honestly, I'm not. Just tend to be more open-minded, that's all. No worry for me thanks. Mum is so worried for me cos she thought I'm dating with a guy! hahax..she had pissed me off when she lectured me last night without getting to hear my explanations. But at then same time, I realised how much she cares for me, that's why I would never get to blame her! lolx!

Next thing, it's about my prince charming. He is not yet one, cos I do not think that he deserves as I felt that he's taking me for granted just as his whoever had done to him. I gained some informations about his background and yupx, I think I would admire him for that. However, he only goes for cute girls, I'm not, so forget it then. I've learnt some useful lessons:

1. Never be initiative for girls
2. If you really love the person, treat him/her good and never ask for any returns

Yup, that's some key points here you guys can talk over and consider yea. Sometimes, BGR is damn complicated, hence I simply neglect what I really hope for, cos it's not going to be a good ending. As for now, my life is all about study and family and pure friends and music( which I can never let go of!) Now what I need is concentration, that's all for now. I'm satisfied enough =) Cheers to me and my loved ones!

A rubbish
I'm a piece of rojak now. Currently demoralised by e unknown result of my appeal and the feel of desertion from my dad. I felt not fair. Really, unfair to me. Why am I olwas searching to understand them well, but they just couldnt make an effort to stand in my shoes. Is this how a family should work out?...I had said millions and millions of time, those are not unhealthy pubs out there in clark quay, they're well-maintained and casual places for adults to drink. That's all!!...And there're security guards around there who act as nanny to all ppl there!!..Hence, no worry at all!!..
And....tml might be my last dae in clark quay...hoping there's miracles to come true. I'll miss everyone there, except for some black asshole there. If god loves to play tricks on me, let it be then. I'm tired cos I dun think I'm enjoying e feeling of hide-and-seek in this long holidae. I'd fun of cos, but I'm sad almost all times. I lost e faith of waiting for a person which cost me 4 yrs without any changes. And now, I'm again having a crush on someone whom dun meant to stay in my life. I'm a failure at e time being, and I'm trying to make a change for myself. I'm trying, and I mean it.

Over-reliance

nOt tt I'm being offensive, but over-reliance is e primary cause of broken hearts and friendships. Sometime I wondered, have I dOne e right thing?..Had I used the correct way to handle e bonds within my circle of friends?..I'm certainly confused by tt. But I know somehow I'd did something real wrong. Sorry to some of my ex- 2/8 friends for real losing contacts with ya guys. It's really my fault. I mean for e negliance. I dun mean it,really. And up till now, I'm still a failure. But wad I can say is, I felt unfair n yup, UNFAIR. Why r we trying our best to hold on something, and yet e other party made no initiative to do e same thing and weakening the group instead. I'm more sad than resentful of cos. I hate how e way we actually "governed" e group, how e way e other party being too sensitive and out-of-mind. And most of all, how a party actually dun give a hack care to explain wad HAS HAPPENED and leaving a big mess behind. And I'm telling ya guys, we're not cleaners.

And lastly, if a friendship jux lose tt trust, everything is gone. Goodness sake.