When night falls, thought of my work not yet done.
When hot sun embrace this little earth again, I really hate to wake up cos I just dun wanna study -_-
So tired and saddening.
Obviously lotsa things happened.
One of them is bout my care group,
so disappointing.
and don't worry Mich, we can overcome it all! ;)

Yesterday was discussing with Mich, Sheena and Ruby...
God, lotsa stuffs to do!.
Plus the 3 of them will be having ELf camps!.
Poor them, will be so tiring X(
And me, will be having karate training as well.
Argh!. I must train myself well and be my best =)
Never be afraid to fail!.

Oh yah, that reminded me that I saw Taizi and his gf...
Hmm...what can I say...
Yah... First time that I comment a girl that is so-so looking...
lol. But I didn't mean that I'm better than her or what la, just didn't expect Taizi's taste is lyk that...
ya.. I'm still ugly anyway... now worry..
Btw, he's a flirt, so why bother so much.
Hate guys who are such sort of person, shameful!. And jerks!.

and there's a cool scene we'd seen in TM yesterday!.
A big gang of Ah Bang acting as heroes trying to help a lady get her stuffs back from the young theif!. ( I assume)
lol. Anyway, Ah bang are still kind and cool de ks!.

After that exciting MOVIE, I went over to 1 jie's house to stone XP
lol.
They were playing majong, I just had one game then pass over to 7 meis cos I don't feel like playing.
Can't focus. Really had a long day... can't stand it.
Then I was so damn quiet throughout!.
And it's seriously not Manda lo!.
I asked Hao and she felt it too,
Hahahs. So sry, maybe cos I'm too tired.
Right after my term test, Manda will be back again =)

Love and thanks to:

Mich
Sheena
Rubayn
Carmen
Friendly
My 7 Jie meis
Qing sista
My sec sch buddies

for everything.
Seeing ya guys made me love myself more cos I wanna share my joy with ya guys too.

Sians,
study~

The weather is damn hot and I really cant stand it =(
Humid day, miserably doing CSAS presentation, missed my movie and no shoes to buy.
Wth...why can't I do smth that at least satisfies what I need and want.
I can't help being emo. I really can't.
I know I can control my feelings towards my friends but whenever I'm back in the shade, I've to cry a bit to feel better.
However, I don't feel any better.
All I can do is to use vulgarities to scold whatever shit that blocks my way and after then blame myself for being so stupid.
know wad, I failed a lot other quizzes too...
Wad else?. I studied them.
Bloody hell...what exactly fate wanna bring to me?!.
Can you like stop it, yah!. STOP IT!.
Sure you're shortening my life cos I'm not happy at all.
And it's not cos of some small cases, it matters to me alot!.
I've been suffering for almost a year since last year, what you want from me?.
I've been trying my best for everything, almost everything.
Do whatever I can but why you keep taking things away from me?..
I want them back and I mean it!.
Certain things really belongs to me and I need it badly..
I want myself back,
I want my mum to talk to me,
I want my results which I think I deserve(at least a PASS?),
I want my freedom,
I want my time with my sistas,
I want my time with lotus peeps...
I don't mind sacrificing time if my results show,
unfortunately it's not.
I hate my 2nd bro for creating the barrier between me and mum,
hate his everything.
He has never done his part as a brother.
He sucks and I mean it.
Definitely he deserves to have failed his relationship.
Childish is what I can say bout him.

A lot of sucky things happened to me, in school and at home.
So yah, enough of all these craps?.

Thinking and evaluating, I'm an idiot and a nth,
hence I'm disposing whatever wild decision I'd made this week...
Feels like stabbing my heart and let it dies off quickly then I wont be dehydrated by the lost of tears
I hate being trapped here... My comfort zone is gone.
After tears is dried and no solution is out yet, staring blankly at this stupid screen...
See how pathetic an idiot can be.
No dream no fun.
No one can help me, it really have to depend on myself...
kao...how am I going to endure all these craps...
I wanna shout out loud...
I wanna sing emo songs...
emo all the way...
why am I like this...
Don't even know who I am know...
an idiot for sure.

Hais. emo post again.
Peeps, don't bother i just need to type out to release stress.
I hate Biotech
FFFFFFFFFFF!.

Shit,
dead

Hais. Obviously I'm slacking now.
And I really hate AIMM!.
Don't understand a single theory of it.
Which idiot invented that.
So tired and hating life...hating life...hating every single part of school cos it ain't fun at all.
Only thing I like about is... PCT!.
Love doing the lab.
Hais..
So lazy to study and I still don't understand after spending 3 hrs browsing the textbook!.
Why why why...
why am I ended up in a course I hated the most,
SCIENCE!.
God, where's my HTM...
Why I sucks at my english and have to endure all these nonsense.
Sucks
sucks
sucks
The pain in me haven't yet subside.
I strongly disagree with what life thought of me!.
Timid, slacker, stupid...
I just wanna tell you that I can do it!.
Die die I must get a bloody diploma of Biology Molecular,
and head for Uni to get my degree for business.
damn u damn u damn u!.
wasted so much of my time for a diploma that serve nth for me.
I hate school I hate evrything!.
except for my sistas, Mich, Berries and other frens...
Hais.
Nvm, I'm toking craps again.
Hate it hate it!.
Hate what TP business school had did to me,
so irresponsible and sucks!.

I gonna do smth!.
Goal for first half yr of 2007:
Score well and pass all my term test papers.

If not...
Go and bang your head la Manda!.

Nth,
me