Halo ppl.
I'm still alive now.
Yesterday was an emo night for me.
So slept rather early.
Thought my results won't affect me,
but apparently it did.
Hais.
Dunno how to explain how I feel now.
Though shitty, but come to think bout it,
I just gotta move on.
How many times I'd failed doesn't mark me dumb I hope.
I need a milk tea to calm down LOL.
And I msg Alan that I quitting I-Guides.
Know he will flare up,
but again I gonna give up my pride.
Whatever pride I have, it can't earn me my diploma cert.
I just wanna finish these, and leave school.
Mentally disturbed.
I now then realize I have no goals at all.
It's all shattered somehow.
My dream for Hotel Manager is dim.
I can't see any light,
I'm blind now.
It's really a big turnover for me.
Can't accept it but I know I gotta.
Anyway, pls smack my face cos I'm such an irresponsible chap.
I hate myself.
Never once I'd love myself.
Forget it, who understand.

Am now starting my research,
pls prove me wrong.
For this 1 month plus,
I gonna work doubly hard and thrice smarter.
Alright,
Jia you to all too =)
TC.

I gonna give up I guides le.
The more I think,
the more I think I should be focusing.
I just can't multi-task.
I'm really a slow-learner.

For once I said I'm not sad at all,
I'm lieing.
Been thinking all bout it since I reach home.
Results...
Then I told my mum bout it,
she ask: "Why u so slow huh..."
Mummy... I also dunno what's happening to me.
It's not working at all.
But I swear I've been trying my best.

What if I fail my exam?.
Who would really help me when I need help?.
Say is easier than act.
I must really be independent this time I swear.

Failing so many tests.
The pain is similar to how I feel when I lose smth precious.
He said he wanna talk to me,
maybe he wanna console me yea.
I'm waiting...
Even if he don't,
I'll still be glad that at least he tried.
He's a really nice person.
So stupid KW, stop talking bad bout him or I'll smack u!.
=P
LOL.

I'm stupid I admit.
Can I have the last chance to try again?.
It's free right?. =)
I will jia you...
no matter how bad the situation is.

And thx 1 Jie for reminding me that I'd updated to similar posts yest!. =)

(BTW, I admit I'm an irresponsible chap)
Arigato gozaimasu!.

Cheers peeps!.

Halo.
I'm so dead now.
Cos I'm not feeling really good.
In fact, a bit numb too.
.
.
.
.
I failed my term test again.
U see, AGAIN.
This time worse,
only passed 1 out of 4.
I really dunno whether I should laugh or cry.
Or just stone there.
I stopped Huang Yan today to ask bout tml's tut.
Then asked her bout my term test results.
Expected.
You see, EXPECTED.
But worse than my expectation.
Cos thought I would only fail 2 for worse situation.
This shows that: I'm worse than what I'd predicted.
Wth.
This isn't good.
Am I too complacent?.
But I did study leh.
Why like that ne....
Partly is due to carelessness.
Hais.
See, I'm dumb.

I feel down now.
Feel numb bout crying.
Feel stupid when I cried for my poor results.
What for?.
Yes, Huiyi is right,
"What done is done"
You either work hard on it or u cont'd to cry till u turn blind.
Crying and self-blaming is silly.
Very SILLY!.
Gotta do smth ks Manda.
I know you failed many times.
MANY.
But this is life,
get up on ur feet now and stop complaining!. =X

Tml shall be looking forward to my new furnitures =)
And yup, Mdm Huang Yan will be meeting me for a TALK.
Yah...
I know what gonna happens tml le.
I'm prepared anyway.

Manda!
Be GLAD that you can learn from your mistakes again!.
Ganbatte kudasai!.
Failing tests won't make u die lah.
Cheer up Manda...
Yah... try to smile hor...
SMILE~



Crazy gal!!. Just out of mind lah. Hahas.



No matter what life gives u, smile and take it's challenge!. =))

Okay peeps, gtg le.
Tc!.